It is as if a room has been closed for many days, then you open it and bad smells escape. But if you keep it open, fresh air will be flowing and the bad smells will be gone.
Your unconscious has accumulated bad smells. It is like a closed house, and it has become a junkyard: whatsoever is wrong or you think is wrong, or people and priests and politicians say is wrong, you go on throwing into the junkyard. You are sitting on a volcano. When you relax, everything will bubble up, it will surface. Allow it, that has to be so. And don’t be worried.
So don’t try to be in the present. Rather, relax. The past and the future are both there, and they will go by themselves. You need not be worried, you simply watch. You don’t do a single thing, because if you do something you will again repress. You don’t do a single thing, you just watch. As if the birds are flying in the sky and you are watching, lying down on the grass, the birds flying in the sky, the clouds moving slowly, lazily. Thoughts are also like clouds, desires are also like birds – you be a watcher.
The problem arises because you become a doer. You say, “This idea should not be there.” Who are you to say that this cloud should not be there? Who are you? Why are you trying to manipulate? The clouds are moving in the sky, thoughts are moving in the inner sky – let them be! You just relax. You doze away – let them be. Whenever you want to see, see; if you don’t want to see, you doze, but don’t do anything. Soon, the sky becomes clear. If you don’t do anything, many things start happening. And the first thing is that all repressions that are released float away from you. Soon the day comes when the sky is absolutely clean and clear. Then you will be in the present.
So, you are trying from the wrong side.
Don’t try to be in the present. Rather, just be in a let-go. And when you are in a let-go, don’t make any conditions, what should happen and what should not happen; otherwise you cannot be in a let-go. A let-go can only be unconditional. You simply relax – now whatsoever happens, happens – and if nothing happens, that too is good. A let-go is a let-go! Now you don’t have any idea what should happen. If the past rushes in, it rushes in. If the future comes in, it comes in. You are not even worried about being in the present, because that will not allow you to be in a let-go. You simply relax.
But relaxation has become really, almost impossible, because you have so many conditions, that this should not be, this should be, this thought is bad, that thought is good, this is from the Devil and this is from God. And you are continuously choosing and manipulating and fighting and arranging. You cannot be in a let-go.
Drop all morality, drop all evaluation. Nothing is good, nothing is bad; everything is whatsoever it is. You relax. Suddenly one day, the present arises in its deep radiance. Then there are no clouds and no thoughts and no desires. And to be in the present is to enter the door of existence.