Chapter 8: Indifference to the Mind Is Meditation
You have not to become attached to the presence of the master, because that will be learning something wrong. You have to learn how you are opening. Forget about the master; that is his business: to be present or not to be present. Your business is to see how you are opening, what happens in your opening, and then try on your own, when you are alone to see whether it can happen or not. It is bound to happen. Maybe in the beginning you will feel that it is a little difficult; a certain attachment grows unconsciously. But you cannot say that the teacher has to follow you everywhere, wherever you go swimming. That will not do. Then each swimmer will need one teacher; it will be too much. Each meditator will need one master with him; it will be too costly, and there is no need at all. You just have to see what is happening in you, and let the same happen when the master is not present.
Or, you can visualize. He will be present somewhere, a few miles away. Here, it is a few feet away. It is only a question of visualizing - just visualize that your master is a few feet away. Space makes no difference, but you have to learn what happens in you, so that you can repeat it in the absence of the master. Otherwise, one can become attached to things which were there to help you - but now they will hinder you. The presence of the master was to help you; now it has become a hindrance, because the master is not there, so you cannot meditate.
Remember, no attachment should grow, no clinging should grow. They are all against your independence, your freedom, your individuality. And whatever is happening here can happen anywhere; it just needs a little understanding of how it happens here. Just try. Even if you fail a few times, don’t be worried. It is a knack which will come to you. And once it happens without any support from outside - even the smallest support, such as the presence of the master - you will feel a great joy, because a great freedom has happened. Now there are no barriers for you. Wherever you are you can be in meditation, you can be in silence, you can be peaceful. Now you can carry your paradise within you. And unless that happens, a disciple has not matured.