Chapter 4: Go On Digging
To make it clear, Nivedano.
Relax. Just remember that you are only a witness. The body is not you, the mind is not you. You are just a mirror.
And as you settle down into a mirror-like witnessing, the whole existence takes on a tremendously beautiful form. Everything becomes divine.
This evening was beautiful on its own, but Joshu’s lion’s roar has made it tremendously beautiful.
This very moment you are a buddha.
When you come back, bring the buddha with you. You have to live out the buddha in your day-to-day life. I am against renouncing the world - I am for recreating the world. The more buddhas there are, the world will have new skies, new dimensions, new doors opening.new mysteries, new miracles.
Collect as much fragrance and flowers as you can.
Come back, but come back as a buddha - peacefully, gracefully. Sit down for a few moments just to recollect your experience of the space that you have visited and the splendor that you have experienced.
Every day you have to go deeper and deeper.
So always remember how far you have gone: tomorrow you have to go a little more. It may take two, or five, or twenty, or thirty years - but you are to become a buddha. As far as I am concerned you are right now a buddha, you have only to gain courage.
In those thirty years you will not be changing into a buddha - you are a buddha already. Those thirty years are just to drop the doubt, the doubt that you - how can you be a buddha? Even if I say it, even if all the buddhas try to convince you, deep down is the doubt: “My god, me? and a buddha?” But one day you will become convinced by your own experience. There is no real conversion without your own experience.
And Maneesha, I am not allowing you any exit.
You have been out for centuries.
Now you have to go in.