Chapter 8: Life Lives for Itself
In the first place, the very idea that tomorrow is fixed and can be known will destroy the very aliveness of it. Then you will be as if you are seeing a movie for the second time. You know everything: now what is going to happen, now what is going to happen.. Why do you get bored seeing a movie the second time and the third time and the fourth time? If you are forced to see the movie many times, the same movie, you will go mad. For the first time you are curious, alive. You are wondering what is going to happen, you don’t know what is going to happen; that’s why you are interested, the flame of interest remains burning.
Life is a mystery; it cannot be predicted. But there are many people who would like to have a predictable life, because then there will be no fear. Everything will be certain; there will be no doubt about anything.
But will there be any opportunity to grow? Without risk has anybody ever grown? Without danger has anybody ever sharpened his consciousness? Without the possibility of going astray, is there any point in being on the right path? Without the alternative of the devil, is there any possibility of achieving godliness?
The alternative is needed; the opposite has to attract and distract you. Choice arises. You have to become more sensitive, more alive, more aware. But if everything is determined and everything can be known beforehand, then what is the point of being aware? Whether you are aware or not will not make any difference. Right now it makes tremendous difference.
Let me tell you, the more aware you become, the less predictable, because you move higher and higher and farther and farther from matter, which is predictable. We know if you heat water to a certain degree of heat, the water evaporates. It is predictable. But it is not the same with a man: you cannot fix a degree of insult where a man becomes angry. Each man is so unique. A buddha may not become angry at all, whatsoever the degree of your insult.
And you know this: sometimes you may become angry by a slight provocation - or even without provocation, and you may start evaporating in anger, without any heat - and sometimes even a great provocation may not disturb you. It depends how good you are feeling in the moment, how alert you are feeling in the moment.
Beggars come in the morning to beg, not in the evening, because they have understood a simple fact of psychology - that in the morning people are more in the mood of sharing; they are more alive, alert, rested. By the evening they are tired and exhausted and fed up with the world; to hope to get something from them is impossible. When people are feeling good themselves, then they share. It depends on their inner feeling.
Remember that life is beautiful because you are capable of becoming more and more alive. No need to be bothered by tomorrow. Live today and don’t allow tomorrow to destroy your today. And move so freely today that tomorrow brings more freedom to you.
Never ask for predictions. Remain open. Whatsoever happens, let it happen, allow it to happen; pass through it. It is a gift of existence. It must have some deep significance.