Chapter 16: The Miracle of Meditation
He said, “I cannot afford to be alone. It exposes me so deeply, it makes me utterly naked before myself. It makes me aware that I have wasted my whole life - and I don’t want to know it.”
I said, “Your not knowing it is not going to help you in any way. It is better to know it, and it is better to go deeper into yourself. Why this misery and aloneness?”
Aloneness should be one of the greatest joys.
People are running. It does not matter where they are going; what matters is whether they are going at full speed or not.
You are asking, “Is there something that I don’t want to see?” There are many things. Fundamentally, it is you that you don’t want to see - and it is because of a wrong conditioning.
My whole approach of inner transformation is that you will have to drop your conditionings. Whatever has been said about you by others - simply drop it. It is absolutely crap. They don’t know about themselves; what can they say about you that can be truthful?
And the opinions that you have collected from others.just try to watch from whom you are collecting your opinions. They are not from a Gautam Buddha, or from a Jesus, or from a Socrates. They are from people who are as ignorant as you are. They are simply passing on others’ opinions that have been given to them.
There is a beautiful story. Whether it is factual or not does not matter; its beauty is in its meaning. One of the greatest emperors India has known was the Mogul emperor, Akbar. He can be compared only to one man in the West, and that is Marcus Aurelius. Emperors are very rarely wise people, but these two names are certainly exceptions.
One day he was in his court talking with his courtiers. He had collected the best people in the country - the best painter, the best musician, the best philosopher, the best poet. He had a small, special committee of nine members who were known as “the nine jewels of Akbar’s court.”
The most important of them was a man called Birbal. Immensely intelligent and a man with a great sense of humor, he did something which was improper to do in front of the emperor. Every emperor has his own rules, his word is the law, and Birbal’s behavior was against something about which Akbar was very stubborn. Akbar immediately slapped Birbal. He respected Birbal, he loved Birbal, he was his most intimate friend, but as far as the rules of the court were concerned, he could not forgive him.