Chapter 2: The Pilgrimage Is Endless
The juices flowing in the tree force the bud to become a flower; and the god dancing within your heart - how long can you hide it? But as long as it is possible, hide it. Or if it becomes too much, go into privacy. Move into a lonely place, shout and dance and sing and be mad - but not in the marketplace. The marketplace is very dangerous for religious people; not in the temples, not in the mosque, not in the synagogues - these are the most dangerous places. Keep yourself completely silent. Best is, don’t go to such places. And whenever the urge is too much there are still forests, still mountains, beaches where you are alone, and the ocean will not make any objection and the mountain will be very happy and the trees will dance with you.
Milarepa has sent me a joke. It is for Devageet.
An elderly man walked into a church and took a seat in the confessional. “Father,” he said solemnly, “I am making love twice a day to a sixteen-year-old girl.”
“Mr. Goldstein, you are Jewish, why are you telling me? I am a Catholic priest!”
“Not just you, Father, I am telling everyone!”
There are moments when who cares that you are a Jew and you need not go to the Catholic priest to confession? And he has not gone there for confession, he is telling everybody!
But avoid the Catholic priest and the confessional, and avoid everybody. Your secret is far greater than Milarepa’s joke. Let it grow. One day you will not be able to contain it, it will explode. But let it explode on its own; as far as you are concerned, keep it secret.
I feel useless. I do not know what to do anymore and whatever I do or plan to do turns out to be wrong or useless. There is nothing really I want to achieve, but on the other hand, when I do nothing and just hang out and meditate, it seems everything is easy.
Things around me happen beautifully. I feel taken care of, even spoilt sometimes. Can I just relax in my uselessness?
It is what I have been teaching you. Be useless, because there are millions of people who are useful! Don’t destroy the variety of the useless.
You say, “I feel useless” - do you think I feel differently? You say, “I do not know what to do anymore” - do you think I know? And you say, “And whatever I do or plan to do turns out to be wrong or useless.” That is really great! “There is nothing really I want to achieve.” That’s what all the buddhas have been teaching: Don’t be an achiever.
You say, “But on the other hand, when I do nothing and just hang out, meditate, it seems everything is easy. Things around me happen beautifully. I feel taken care of, even spoilt sometimes. Can I just relax in my uselessness?”
Absolutely. And if you relax absolutely - nature is very abundant; it has spoilt me, it will spoil you. What else is enlightenment.? Getting spoilt, finally.