Chapter 3: To the New as the New
You see a buddha. He looks so humble - he is. His humbleness is there. You see his face, his simplicity, his utter innocence, and a clue is found - maybe this is the way to get rid of the ego. This is not the way! It is a consequence, something has happened in him which has made him egoless. You cannot copy his behavior and become egoless. Copying the behavior will simply make you a carbon copy. The ego will not disappear. You can eat the same food Buddha takes; you can walk the same way Buddha walks; you can imitate him perfectly. You can become very skillful in imitation, and still the ego will be there, because there is no way to see what has happened in Buddha’s innermost core. All that you can watch is behavior,
That’s why a certain school of psychologists, the behaviorists, go on saying that there is no soul in man; man is only behavior. They are following a certain logic. The logic is that only the behavior can be watched, observed. The soul has never been watched, never has been observed; nobody has seen it! Then how to accept that it exists? Anything that exists must be seen. Only that which is seen exists. Have you ever seen anybody’s soul? All that you see is his behavior, and still you know that your behavior is not you.
But that is inner, an introspection. Inside you know “My behavior is not me” because many times the behavior is there, and you are totally different from the behavior. You see a man coming to your house and you smile, and you know that you are not smiling. That smile is false, just polite, just part of etiquette. You have to smile, so you smile - but deep down there is no smile. Now from the outside you are smiling: that is your behavior; the behaviorist is finished there. But from the inner you are not smiling at all: that is your soul, that is you, the more real you, not just a show, but authentically you. You go on doing a thousand and one things on the outside, and the inside may be different, may be far more different, may even be the polar opposite to your behavior.
But this is introspection, it cannot be an objective observation.
You look at the Buddha, you watch his behavior. From his behavior you start taking cues. You see Jesus, you watch, you start taking notes in your mind: This is the way to sit, this is the way to stand, this is the way to walk, this is the way to sleep and eat.and these are the things to eat. This is how Jesus prays - on his knees - so you kneel down. These are the words that Jesus speaks when he prays. He looks at the sky and says “Father, Abba. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done..” And you say “So I know prayer.” You can kneel down.. Millions of people kneel down every morning, every night all around the globe, and they repeat the same words that Jesus said “Abba, give us our daily bread.” And they go on repeating, and nothing happens. Millions of people who pray are simply wasting their time, because it is pretension, it is not prayer. They have learned a behavior, but their soul is not in prayer. And the question is not how to pray, the question is not what to pray.
Just the other night Gramya was telling me that since she has become a sannyasin, she does not know whom she is praying to, but the prayer is there. Now she was a little puzzled. She asked me “.whether I am praying to God, or I am praying to you, Osho, or to whom? I don’t know anything about God now.” And I told her “This is a far better prayer - vague, cloudy, but more alive.”