Chapter 12: You Are Responsible!
When one experiences different forms of light and colors in meditation - such as red, yellow, blue, ochre, etc. - how can one know to which layers of being they belong?
Is there any gradual sequence of color and light experiences before reaching the ultimate light experience?
Light itself is colorless. All colors belong to light, but light is not a color. Light is just the absence of colors. Light is white; white is not a color. When light is divided, analyzed or passed through a prism, then it is divided into seven colors.
Mind also works as a prism - an inner prism. The outer light, if passed through a prism, is divided into seven colors; the inner light, if passed through mind, is divided into seven colors. So the experience of colors in the inward journey means that you are still in mind. The experience of light is beyond mind, but the experience of colors is within mind. So if you are still seeing colors, then you are still within mind. The mind has not been transcended.
So the first thing to remember is that the experience of colors is within mind, because mind works as a prism through which the inner light is divided. So first one begins to experience colors; then colors dissolve and only light remains.
Light is white; white is not a color. When all the colors are one, white is created. When all the colors are one, when you feel white, when all the colors are there undivided, then you experience white. When no color is there, then you experience black. Both black and white are not colors. When no color is present, then there is black. When all colors are present, undivided, then there is white. All the colors are just divided light.
If you are feeling colors inside, then one thing: you are within mind. So the experience of colors is mental, it is not spiritual. The experience of light is spiritual, but not of colors - because when mind is no more you cannot experience colors. Then only light is experienced.
Secondly, there is no fixed sequence of colors. There cannot be because each mind differs. But the experience of light is exactly the same. Buddha experiencing light or Jesus experiencing light - the experience is the same. It cannot be otherwise because that which creates differences is no more. Mind creates differences.
We are here - we are different because of our minds. If mind is no more, then the factor which divides, which differentiates, is not there. So the experience of light is similar, but the experiences of colors are different and the sequence differs. That’s why, in each religion, a different sequence has been given. Some believe that this color comes first and that comes in the end; others believe quite differently. That difference is really the difference of minds. For example, a person who is fearful, deeply rooted in fear, will experience yellow as the first color. The first color coming in will be yellow, because yellow is the color of death - not only symbolically, but actually also.