Chapter 16: Emptiness Has Its Own Fullness
And this is my understanding: you may trust me or not, but I trust you. You may change, you may even become an enemy to me, but my trust will remain the same in you because my trust is not something conditional upon you, it does not depend on you. My trust is my joy, and I want to give you the whole.
Nothingness is half of the truth - immensely relieving, but yet it leaves something like a wound, something unfulfilled. You will be relieved, relaxed, but you will still be looking for something because emptiness cannot become the end.
The other side, wholeness, has to be made available to you. Then your emptiness is full - full of wholeness. Then your nothingness is all. It is not just nothing, but all.
These are the moments when contradictory terms are transcended, and whenever you transcend any contradiction you become enlightened. Whatever the contradiction may be, all contradictions transcended bring enlightenment to you. And this is one of the fundamental contradictions: emptiness and wholeness. The transcendence needs nothing but just a silent understanding.
Since being with you, I have noticed that when a person becomes closely related to you they sometimes get a fixed idea about who you are. It seems like they forget who you really are and even why they have come to you. This situation puzzles me, even scares me a little. Would you please comment?
The mind has a natural tendency to quickly get fixed ideas. It is very much afraid of change, because change means rearrangement. Each time you change something, you have to rearrange your whole inner being.
Mind wants to live with fixed ideas. When a person comes to me - and it has been happening for thirty-five years continually - he starts loving me. He comes closer, becomes intimate and then gets a fixed idea. And that’s where he misses me, because now his fixed idea is going to create trouble.
I am not an idea and I am not fixed. I am changing. I am in absolute agreement with Heraclitus that you cannot step twice in the same river. Translated, it means you cannot meet the same person again. I not only agree with him, I go a little further: I say you cannot step in the same river even once. Again translated to the human world, it means you cannot meet the same person even once, because even while you are meeting him he is changing, you are changing, the whole world is changing.
But once you get a fixed idea you cling to it, and I am constantly going to change. Tomorrow you will find yourself in a conflict.