Chapter 6: Now Is the Only Real Time
But we are conditioned in such a way that we cannot enjoy a few things. We have been brought up in such a way that we can enjoy only light, not darkness. Now this is missing something tremendously beautiful and something tremendously alive.
Darkness has its own joy, light has its own joy, and the person who understands will enjoy both. And he will not create any conflict and he will not choose. Darkness has silence in it, which no light can ever have. Darkness has a stillness in it, utter stillness, which no light can ever have. And darkness has infinity: it is unbounded, it knows no boundaries. Light has always boundaries to it, it is never infinite, it is finite. Light comes and goes; darkness abides, darkness is eternal.
It is because of this experience that in India we have painted Krishna as dark - his other name, Shyam, means dark, “the black one.”
Darkness has depth. Whiteness is shallow, whiteness always looks superficial. Start enjoying darkness. Feel its infinity, feel its spaciousness, feel its eternity. Be touched by it and be moved by it - it is so velvety it has a beauty of its own. And unless you are capable of loving darkness, you have not earned the right to know light.
The light that you know is the outside light; it is against darkness. And the light that you will know when you transcend inner darkness will not be against darkness. It will contain all that darkness has - and something more, and plus. Remember it: the light outside is not the true light. The true light will have all the qualities of this light and all the qualities of this darkness and still will be more than the sum total of them. It is a great splendor where dualities meet and merge into each other, where dualities pour all their beauties into each other and a new beauty arises - the beauty of unity, integration.
So, remember it, whatsoever you know about light and darkness, both have to be left behind. When you close your eyes, you have left the light outside; now you enter darkness. Love it. Sing a song with it. Have a dance with it. Don’t fight with it, don’t be afraid of it, don’t keep a distance from it. And don’t go on looking for light. Forget about light. This darkness is there, it has to be enjoyed. One has to be grateful to existence for this darkness, this silence, this stillness, this velvety expanse. And then one day, the observer and the observed are no more two.
When you love something, the duality disappears. If you love darkness you become darkness. And when there is no duality, there comes a luminousness of a totally different quality: it is not the light that comes from the sun, and it is not the light that comes from electricity, and it is not the light that comes from the moon. Then you have come to the very source of all light and all darkness, then you have come to the very root, the very ground, of being.