Chapter 10: Dissolve in My People
First, I am a man who is consistently inconsistent. It will not be possible to make a dogma out of my words; anybody trying to make a creed or dogma out of my words will go nuts! You can make a dogma out of Mahavira - he is a very consistent man, very logical. You can make a philosophy out of Buddha - he is very mathematical. You can make a philosophy out of Krishnamurti - for fifty years he has simply been repeating the same thing again and again; you cannot find a single inconsistency in him. On the one hand he says, “I am not your master, your guru. Don’t depend on me,” but in a subtle way he is creating the whole philosophy - which is so consistent, so utterly consistent, that everybody would like to be imprisoned in it, it is so sane.
It is impossible with me: I live in the moment, and whatsoever I am saying right now is true only for this moment. I have no reference to my past, and I don’t think of the future at all. So my statements are atomic; they are not part of a system. And you can make a dead institution only when a philosophy is very systematic, when there are no more flaws, when no fault can be found, when all doubts are solved, all questions dissolved and you are given a ready-made answer to everything in life.
I am so inconsistent that it is impossible to create a dead institution around me, because a dead institution will need the infrastructure of a dead philosophy. I am not teaching you any doctrine, I am not giving you any principles; on the contrary, I am trying to take away all the philosophies that you have carried all along. I am destroying your ideologies, creeds, cults, dogmas, and I am not replacing them with anything else. My process is of pure deconditioning. I am not trying to recondition you. I will leave you open.
Hence, you can see it here, all my sannyasins are unique individuals. There is no certain pattern into which they have to fit themselves. There is no “should,” “should not”; there is no rigid structure, but only a liquidity. I am not giving you the Ten Commandments, I am not giving you detailed information on how to live, because I believe in the individual and the individual’s dignity and his freedom. I am sharing my vision - that is my joy - but it is not being shared in order that you should try to live up to it.
Krishnamurti goes on saying, “Don’t follow me. Don’t imitate me,” but on the other hand, when people don’t follow him he becomes very irritated, annoyed. It is a little subtle. For example, he says, “Don’t follow me,” and people follow him. Then he becomes annoyed. If you are truly sincere, then you can say “Don’t follow me,” but if people want to follow you, who are you to prevent them? You have said your thing, now it is up to them what to do or not to do. You are not their master, so if they want to follow you, you cannot prevent them. If you prevent them, that means you are forcing them to follow your idea of not following.
He becomes very annoyed.
Just a few days ago he was in Bombay, and I tell my sannyasins that wherever he is, go there and sit in the front rows. And the moment he sees the orange people he becomes unenlightened immediately, he starts shouting!
Now, why this annoyance? There must be some deep desire to control. Now who are you to tell somebody not to wear orange? If somebody wants to wear orange then it is his choice. A subtle strategy, a very indirect strategy to manipulate, to dominate, to possess.