Chapter 6: Taming the Bull
So if somebody has a high fever, don’t start giving him a cold shower. That is logical: if you think that fever itself is the disease, then cool down the body. The body is getting hotter and hotter, cool it down; give him an ice-cold shower bath. You are fighting with the symptoms - you may kill the patient. This is not the way. The illness is somewhere deep down; the fever is simply indicative that something has gone wrong within. Treat that something which has gone wrong within, and the temperature will come down to normal of its own accord.
Doubt is a symptom, it is not the disease. When you try to cling to a belief, you are misunderstanding doubt as the disease. So you think: If I believe, doubt will disappear. No, it won’t disappear - it will just go underground. It will become unconscious. In the conscious you will believe in God; in the unconscious you will go on denying him.
Don’t be afraid of doubt. Doubt is not the enemy; doubt is the friend. The doubt is simply saying to you that you have not searched within; hence, doubt is there. You have not looked into your own reality; hence, doubt is there. Look into your own reality, and doubt disappears like darkness. Bring light..
I have heard about one great Christian priest, Henry Ward Beecher. In his church there was a clock which was always either too fast or too slow, and people were always complaining about the clock. It was an everyday problem. Whosoever came, he would talk to Beecher and he would say, “The clock is not right.”
One day Beecher got tired of it all and put a sign on the clock: “Don’t blame my hands,” it read. “The trouble lies deeper.”
The trouble always lies deeper. The trouble is not on the surface. The trouble is not with the hands of a clock, but deep in the mechanism. So don’t try to change your mind from doubting into believing; that is not going to help. It is not a question of the mind - the trouble lies deeper, deeper than your mind, and you have to move deep within yourself.
This is the whole meaning of searching for the bull. The bull is life energy, the dynamism, the vitality.
The fifth sutra:
The whip and rope are necessary,
else he might stray off down some dusty road.
Being well trained he becomes naturally gentle.
Then, unfettered, he obeys his master.
The sixth sutra:
Mounting the bull, slowly I return homeward.
The voice of my flute intones through the evening.
Measuring with hand-beats the pulsating harmony,
I direct the endless rhythm.
Whoever hears this melody will join me.
Listen to every word as carefully as possible: