Chapter 29: The Answer Is You
The two recruits meet in the corridor and one says, “Boy, you won’t believe how dumb my officer is. He gave me a dollar to buy him a Rolls Royce. Doesn’t he know it is Sunday and the shops will be closed?”
“That’s nothing,” says the other. “My officer told me to go to his house and see if he is there. Can’t he just make a phone call himself?”
I was drawn to your commune at Rajneeshpuram like to a magnet about three years ago, not understanding why I was there, just knowing somewhere inside of my being that there was no other place on this planet to experience life in its totality. I had never read any of your books, nor any other books on the search for truth, awareness, or raising consciousness. I wonder how I keep coming to your well when I don’t even feel thirsty, or at least I don’t experience this thirst.
Life is a mystery, and it is not always possible to find explanations for what is happening to you and why it is happening. In the first place, why are you in the world? There is no answer to it. Why does love arise in you, suddenly, without even giving you an advance notice? There is no rational answer for it. Why does the roseflower look beautiful to you? You cannot explain it.
You are saying, “I was drawn to your commune like to a magnet about three years ago, not understanding why I was there.” Nobody understands it. You think all these people understand why they are here? Do you think I know why I am here? At the most this much can be said: I am here because of you, and you are here because of me. But that does not explain anything. “.just knowing somewhere inside of my being that there was no other place on this planet to experience life in its totality.” That is more than is needed, to be pulled, magnetically.
Everybody is longing in his heart to live life totally, but society does not allow you, the culture prevents you, religion controls you, the family cuts your wings. All around you there are people whose vested interest is that you should not live totally. It is surprising: why are they so interested that people do not live totally? Because their whole exploitation of humanity depends on it.
A man who lives totally will not drink alcohol, or take any other kind of drug. Naturally, the people who are earning millions of dollars out of alcohol and drugs cannot allow you to live totally. To live totally is so joyous that you don’t want to destroy your joy by drinking alcohol. Alcohol is needed by miserable people, by people who are troubled, by people who want somehow to forget their problems, their anxieties - at least for a few hours. The alcohol is not going to change anything - but even a rest for a few hours seems to be an absolute necessity for millions of people.