Chapter 28: Meditation: An Unburdening of Repressions
The real is not something which has to be achieved. The false is your achievement. The real is not something to be achieved, it is not something to be cultivated. It is something to be discovered! It is already there. You need not try to attain it, because any effort will only lead to some other false face. For a false face effort is needed; it has to be cultivated. For the real face you have not to do anything, it is already there. If you simply leave your clinging to the false faces, the false will drop and that which is real will remain. When you have nothing to drop, and only that which cannot be dropped is there, you will come to realize what is real.
Meditation is the way to drop the false faces. That is why there is so much insistence on being thoughtless - because without thought you cannot create a false face. In a thoughtless state of awareness, you will be real - because it is basically thought which creates false faces and masks. When there is no thought there can be no face. You will be faceless, or with the real face - and both mean the same.
So be aware of your thought process. Do not fight with it, do not repress it. Simply have awareness: the thoughts are there just like clouds in the sky, and you are looking at them without any prejudice, either for or against. If you are against, you will be fighting - and that very fight will create a new thought process. If you are for them, you will forget yourself and you will float in the current of the thought process. You will not be there as a conscious witness. If you are for, you will be in the process. If you are against, you will create another process in reaction.
So do not be for and do not be against. Allow the thoughts to move, let them go wherever they are going, be in a deep let-go, and simply witness. Whatsoever is passing, witness. Do not judge; do not say, “This is good, this is bad.” If the thought of a divine being comes, do not say, “Beautiful!” The moment you say this you are identified with it, and you are cooperating with the thought process. You are helping it, you are giving energy to it, you are feeding it. And if you are feeding it, it can never drop.
Or if there is a thought, a sexual thought, do not say, “This is bad; this is sin.” Because when you say, “This is sin,” you have created another series of thoughts. Sex is a thought, sin is a thought, God is a thought. Be neither for nor against. Simply look with unprejudiced eyes, just watching indifferently.
This will take time. Because your mind is so occupied with notions, it is very difficult. The moment we see something we have judged it. We do not wait; there is not even a single moment’s gap. You see a flower, and you have already said, “It is beautiful.” In the very seeing the interpretation comes in.
You will have to be constantly aware to drop this mechanical habit of judging. You see a face and you have already judged - ugly, good, bad, or anything else. This judgment has become so deep-rooted that we cannot see anything simply. The mind enters immediately. It becomes an interpretation; it is not a simple vision. Do not interpret. Simply see.