Chapter 2: The Root Problem of All Problems
Mind is never peaceful; no-mind is peace. Mind itself can never be peaceful, silent. The very nature of the mind is to be tense, to be in confusion. Mind can never be clear, it cannot have clarity, because mind is by nature confusion, cloudiness. Clarity is possible without mind, peace is possible without mind; silence is possible without mind, so never try to attain a silent mind. If you do, from the very beginning you are moving in an impossible dimension.
So the first thing is to understand the nature of the mind, only then can something be done.
If you watch, you will never come across any entity like mind. It is not a thing, it is just a process; it is not a thing, it is like a crowd. Individual thoughts exist, but they move so fast that you cannot see the gaps in between. The intervals cannot be seen because you are not very aware and alert; you need a deeper insight. When your eyes can look deep, you will suddenly see one thought, another thought, another thought - but no mind.
Thoughts together, millions of thoughts, give you the illusion that mind exists. It is just like a crowd, millions of people standing in a crowd. Is there anything like a crowd? Can you find the crowd other than the individuals standing there? But they are standing together; their togetherness gives you the feeling that something like a crowd exists. Only individuals exist.
This is the first insight into the mind. Watch, and you will find thoughts; you will never come across the mind. And if it becomes your own experience - not because I say it, not because Tilopa sings about it, no, that won’t be of much help - if it becomes your experience, if it becomes a fact of your own knowing, then suddenly many things start changing. Because you have understood such a deep thing about mind, then many things can follow.
Watch the mind and see where it is, what it is. You will feel thoughts floating and there will be intervals. And if you watch long, you will see that intervals are more than the thoughts, because each thought has to be separate from another thought; in fact, each word has to be separate from another word. The deeper you go, you will find more and more gaps, bigger and bigger gaps. A thought floats, then comes a gap where no thought exists; then another thought comes, another gap follows.
If you are unconscious you cannot see the gaps; you jump from one thought to another, you never see the gap. If you become aware you will see more and more gaps. If you become perfectly aware, then miles of gaps will be revealed to you. And in those gaps, satoris happen. In those gaps the truth knocks at your door. In those gaps, the guest comes. In those gaps godliness is realized, or whatsoever way you like to express it. And when awareness is absolute, then there is only a vast gap of nothingness.
It is just like clouds: clouds move. They can be so thick that you cannot see the sky hidden behind. The vast blueness of the sky is lost; you are covered with clouds. Then you go on watching: one cloud moves and another has not come into the vision yet.and suddenly a peek into the blueness of the vast sky.