Chapter 2: The Mystery of Meditation
And the first existential act that can be used is awareness. Be aware of your mental processes, how your mind works. The moment you become aware of the function of the mind, you are not mind. The very awareness of mental processes means you are beyond: aloof, a witness. And the more you become aware, the more you become able to see the gaps: the gaps are there, but you are so unaware that they are never seen and perceived. The gaps are always there. Between two words there is always a gap. Otherwise the two words cannot remain two. They will become one.
Between two words there is always a gap, howsoever unperceivable, howsoever small, but the gap is there. Between two notes of music there is silence, howsoever small, howsoever unperceivable. Otherwise two notes cannot be two; two words cannot be two without the interval - a wordless interval is always there. But one has to be keenly aware, attentive, to know the gap, the interval.
The more you become aware, the slower the mind goes. It is always relative. The less you are aware, the faster the mind is; the more you are aware, the slower the process of the mind is. With all things.but because you have become aware, it looks slower, it appears slower; it is the same. But you are keen, you are observing, you have become more conscious. More consciousness means a slower mind. When the mind is slower, gaps widen; you can perceive them.
It is just like a film. If a projector is run slowly, then you see the gaps. There are so many gaps - gaps and gaps and gaps. If I raise my hand, it cannot be filmed without gaps. I can raise it without gaps, but it can never be filmed without gaps. My hand raised, one foot raised, will have to be shot in a thousand parts and each part will be a still, dead photograph. These thousand parts, part-photographs - partial, dead - if they can be passed before your eyes so fast that you cannot see the gap, then you see the hand raised. Then you see the hand raised as a process because the gaps are not seen. Otherwise, films can never be taken without gaps. The gaps are there.
Mind, too, is just like a projector, a linguistic projector. Gaps are there. Be more aware and attentive of your mind, and you will see the gaps. It is just like a gestalt picture. A picture can be made which can be seen as two things, but you cannot see the two things simultaneously. The picture can be of an old lady, and the same picture can be of a younger one. Both are in the picture but if you see one, you will not see the other because the attention changes. You are focused on one, then the other is not seen. When you see the other, the previous one is lost. Now you know that the same dots, the same inkblot, has two pictures. Now you know perfectly well, you have seen both, but you cannot see both simultaneously. Still, you cannot see both simultaneously. If you see the old lady, the younger is not seen. And you will even have some difficulty to change from one picture to another, because the focus becomes focused. You know - now you have seen the other picture also - but you will have some difficulty to change the focus. When the focus is changed the younger lady will be seen, but the older one will be lost.