Chapter 7: Meditation and the Inner Eye
When you trust your master so much that if he says, “Leave me,” you can leave him, only then will you be able to be freed. If you can trust your master so much that if the master says, “Kill me,” and you can kill him, only then will you be able to be freed - not before that. And this has to be brought about by and by. It is a long process. Sometimes the whole life, and sometimes many lives, the master goes on working with the disciple.
The disciple is not aware, he doesn’t know; he moves in darkness. The master is leading him toward the point where the disciple will not be a disciple, but will become a master in his own right. When you have become a master, when this need to depend has completely disappeared, when you can exist alone, when you can be alone and there is no pain, no suffering, no anguish, when you can be alone and in ecstasy, only then are you free.
Really, when a disciple happens to be near a master, the master appears to be God. For the disciple this is a fact because such love flows from the master, such high vibrations flow through the master. He becomes a source and just by his presence you are uplifted. Just by being in touch you are different. Just by being near him you vibrate in a different dimension altogether.
So if the master appears to be God it is a fact for the disciple and nothing is wrong in it. The master is God. It is only wrong when the disciple is not aware that he himself is also God. He is not wrong about the master, he is wrong about himself. And if the master says, “I am not God,” he is closing the very possibility to say to the disciple someday, “You are God also.” The master will not say it because this has to be revealed.
Even if the disciple has come to feel that the master is God, it is a great step. Now the second step will be that the disciple has come to feel he himself is God. When the disciple has come to feel that he himself is God, then the whole existence will become godly. Then there is no need to even say that the master is God. It is irrelevant. The whole existence is God, so what is the use of calling the master a god? But in the beginning it is significant.
Remember, for the disciple truth has to be revealed in many steps; it cannot be revealed totally because you will not be capable of bearing it. You will not be capable of bearing it. It will be too destructive. It has to be revealed slowly, part by part. Only that much can be revealed to you which you can absorb, which can become your blood, your bones, your heart, which will not prove destructive.
Hence, many things will be said later on. The master will go on saying things. The more you become capable, the more he will say. And when really you have become so capable that now you can be independent, the last thing the master will say is, “I am a bondage to you. Now leave this last fetter; now leave this last slavery.”
When Zarathustra was going away from his disciples, moving to the hills to disappear forever, he said to his disciples, “Now the last message, and the last message is this: Beware of me; I am dangerous. You may become dependent on me and my whole effort is to make you independent. You may take my word as truth and my whole effort is to tell you that no word can be truth. Now beware of me.”