Chapter 5: The Fire Test
But again Sanai reminds you that on the path of love this has to be remembered continuously. Don’t forget it even for a single moment: You have to realize that it is his guidance. Always remember that if you start moving towards God it is he who has chosen you. Don’t for a moment think, “Look! I am a great seeker of God. I am no ordinary man, I am not worldly; I am not like these worldly creatures. I am a spiritual man; I search for God. I don’t seek and search for money or power.” You have fallen again; again you have fallen into the basement. The ego is back. Never for a single moment think that it is you who is searching for godliness.
On the contrary, on the path of love, remember it must be God that has called you - otherwise how could you have searched for him? It must be God that has chosen you; it must be God that is pulling you. It must be God that is in some unknown, mysterious way taking you farther away to some unknown existence. It is God that has taken possession of you.
You have to realize
that it is his guidance
that keeps you on the path.
And never for a single moment think, “It is because of my strength that I am on the path.” No. If it is because of your strength on the path, you have already gone astray. You have already become an egoist. You have created the separation between you and God, existence. “It is he who keeps me on the path. It is he who keeps reminding me not to go astray.”
Plato used a beautiful word for truth. The word is althea, it means non-forgetting, not forgetting. It means remembering, it means constant remembering. Truth is a constant remembering. Truth is not forgetting for a single moment that God is, that only God is; that “He has given me life,” that “He has given me the desire to search for truth,” that “He has chosen me to search for him,” that “He must have called me in some mysterious way - otherwise how could I have moved in his direction?”
The lover keeps on reminding himself, “It is the beloved who is functioning like a magnet. I am being pulled, I am being drawn. It is not my work, it is his grace.” And if you can remember this, that it is his grace, the ego will not arise, and slowly, slowly the ego will be dropped.
And when the ego is dropped you have arrived. Then the three are one: then the lover and the beloved and the love are one. You have entered into the garden, the hadiqa.
Enough for today.