Chapter 18: Dropping out of the Olympics
My vision is that of a goal-less life. That is the vision of all the buddhas. Everything simply is, for no reason at all. Everything simply is utterly absurd. If this is understood, then where is the hurry, and for what? Then you start living moment to moment. Then this moment is given to you, a gracious gift from God or the whole or whatsoever you want to call it - Tao, Dhamma, Logos.
This moment is available to you - sing a song, live it in its totality. And don’t try to sacrifice it for any other moment that is going to come in the future. Live it for its own sake.
They say art is for art’s sake. It may be so, it may not be so - although I am not an artist. But I can say to you: Life is for life’s sake. Each moment is utterly for its own sake. To sacrifice it for anything else is to be unintelligent. And once the habit of sacrificing settles, then this moment you will sacrifice for the next, and the next for the next, and so on, so forth - this year for the next year, and this life for the next life! Then it is a simple logical process: once you have taken the first step, then the whole journey starts - the journey that leads you into the wasteland, the journey that makes your life a desert, the journey that is self-destructive, suicidal.
Live in the moment for the sheer joy of living it. Then each moment has the quality of an orgasm. Yes, it is orgasmic. This is how my sannyasins have to live, with no should, with no ought, with no must, with no commandments. You are not here to be with me to become martyrs, you are here to be with me to enjoy life to its fullness. And the only way to live, love, enjoy, is to forget the future. It exists not.
And if you can forget the future, if you can see that it is not there, there is no point in constantly getting ready for it. The moment future is dropped, past becomes irrelevant on its own accord. We carry the past so that we can use it in the future. Otherwise who will carry the past? It is unnecessary. If there is no future, what is the point of carrying the knowledge that the past has given to you? It is a burden which will destroy the joy of the journey.
And let me remind you, it is a pure journey. Life is a pilgrimage to nowhere: from nowhere to nowhere. And between these two nowhere’s is the now-here. Nowhere consists of two words: now, here. Between these two nowhere’s is the now-here.
It is not a question of following a certain technique to slow down, because if your basic approach towards life remains the same - goal-oriented - you may try to slow down, and you may even succeed in slowing down, but now you have started another tension in your life. You have to be constantly on guard so that you remain slow; you have to hold yourself continuously so that you remain slow.
You cannot have a free flow of your energies. You will be constantly afraid, because if you forget the technique, immediately the old habit will take possession of you. And the habit is there, because in fact the habit is rooted in the philosophy of your life. You have been taught to become achievers. Achieve something!