Chapter 10: The Inner Music
Where do you go on rushing to? And you are searching for this inner rhythm - sometimes in money, sometimes in power, sometimes in prestige, sometimes in so many kinds of relationships. You go on begging. You want to know something of the transcendental, you are thirsty for the transcendental.
And once in a while, even in ordinary life, it happens. You know those few moments when suddenly one day you wake up in the morning and everything seems to fit perfectly. The birds are singing, the air is fragrant, the sun is rising, and suddenly you feel that all is quiet. You are no longer separate for a moment; you feel a great joy arising in you for no reason at all. You suddenly feel vibrant, utterly rejuvenated, at home. Maybe the night’s deep sleep and rest, maybe the beautiful morning, the song of the birds, the fresh air, the dewdrops on the grass leaves shining in the early sun - all this created the context. Not by your effort, but just by accident, you fell in harmony with yourself and with existence. And remember, it happens always together. Whenever you fall in harmony with yourself, you fall in harmony with existence too.
Harmony has two sides: the individual and the universal. If the individual is in harmony, then there is no reason why he should not be in harmony with the whole. If inside you all conflict has disappeared, even for a single moment, in that moment you are part of the whole, you are no more an island, you are no more separate. All walls have suddenly disappeared; you are no more imprisoned.
In that moment you know the glory, the splendor, that life is. That splendor is godliness, that feel is godliness. That experience of harmony is godliness. God is not a person but the presence that is felt when you are in harmony and you are also in harmony with existence - that accord. That accord is called dhun.
Sunta nahin dhun ki khabar.
Listen to that accord which is available every moment of your life. It happens only accidentally, because you have not prepared yourself for it, to receive it consciously. So it happens only once in a while.
Once Leo Tolstoy was asked, “How many experiences did you have of divine ecstasy in your life?”
He started crying, great tears started rolling down from his eyes. He said, “Not more than seven in my life of seventy years, but I am grateful for those seven moments. I am miserable also, because in those moments it was so self-evident that is could be the flavor of my whole life. In those moments I was so certain that this could be my experience day in, day out, year in, year out - this could spread over my whole life, this could become my flavor. But it didn’t happen. Those moments came on their own and they went on their own. But I am still grateful to God that even without any conscious effort on my part, once in a while he has been knocking at my doors.”