Chapter 4: The Guest Waits for Your I to Die
My body and my mind are in depression
because you are not with me.
How much I love you and want you in my house!
When I hear people describe me as your bride
I look sideways ashamed,
because I know that far inside us
we have never met.
Then what is this love of mine?
I don’t really care about food,
I don’t really care about sleep,
I am restless indoors and outdoors.
The bride wants her lover
as much as a thirsty man wants water.
And how will I find someone
who will take a message to the guest from me?
How restless Kabir is all the time!
How much he wants to see the guest!
Aristotle defines man as the rational animal; no definition can be more false than this. Man is the most irrational animal, because man is not yet conscious. Reason is possible only as a byproduct of consciousness. Man is asleep, man is dreaming. How can he be rational? He has no eyes to see, he has no awareness to know, he is utterly confused.
Man is a confusion, confusion between the body and the soul, confusion between the material and the spiritual, confusion between logic and love. Out of this confusion there is no possibility of knowing God. Out of this confusion you can go on crying and praying, but your prayer will never reach to the divine, your crying is futile. Out of this confusion you will not be able to see the light. This confusion has to be dropped.
One has to become intensely aware or intensely loving. These are the only two keys which can bring man out of the state he is in: either intense awareness - that is the path of meditation - or intense, total love - that is the path of devotion.
Kabir is a devotee: he is on the path of love. He will talk of love again and again, but what he means by love has to be understood well. By love he means an intense desire to disappear into the whole. It is not the love you know of, that you talk about; it is a totally different phenomenon. Your love is an effort to dominate the other; it is a strategy to possess the other, to exploit the other. Kabir is not talking about that love. You cannot possess God, you can only be possessed by God.
To love God means to surrender, to trust, to be ready to die into him, because dying in God is the beginning of a new life; it is resurrection. Love has to become such an intense flame that it burns you out, that you are not left behind, that you are consumed in it. If you are not - the guest comes.
This paradox has to be understood: the guest cannot come if the host is very much there; the guest can come only when the host is not there at all. In fact, that’s what it really means to be a host: absent, utterly absent, with no ego, with no idea of “I” within you; just an utter, pure emptiness, then you are a host. When the host is not there, then you are really a host. And then not even a split second is lost and the guest comes.
The guest does not come from the outside, hence there is no time gap. The dying of the host is the resurrection of the guest. You are the host, you are the guest. If you live with the “I” you remain a host, unacquainted with the guest. If you drop the “I,” you are the guest.