Chapter 4: I Am a Drunkard
But love cannot create a prison - and if love creates a prison, then nothing is left for hatred to do. Love brings freedom, love gives freedom. It is nonpossessiveness. But that is possible only if you have known a totally different quality of love: not of need but of sharing.
Love is sharing of overflowing joy. You are too full of joy; you cannot contain it, you have to share it. Then there is poetry and then there is something tremendously beautiful which is not of this world, which is something that comes from the beyond. This love cannot be learned, but obstacles can be removed.
Many times I say learn the art of love, but what I really mean is: learn the art of removing all that hinders love. It is a negative process. It is like digging a well: you go on removing many layers of earth, stones, rocks, and then suddenly there is water. The water was always there; it was an undercurrent. Now you have removed all the barriers, the water is available. So is love: love is the undercurrent of your being. It is already flowing, but there are many rocks, many layers of earth to be removed.
That’s what I mean when I say learn the art of love. It is really not learning love but unlearning the ways of unlove.
The moment you are centered in your being, rooted in your being, you become full of grace, as if godliness has penetrated you. You are empty and God starts descending in you. He can descend only when you are not: your absence becomes his presence.
God is not a person but a presence. And two swords cannot exist in one sheath: either you can exist, or godliness. You have to disappear, evaporate. Your absence is what sannyas is all about.
The process of sannyas is the process of becoming absent more and more, so that one day there is only empty space left inside and nothing else. In that emptiness, whenever it is total, instantly God is felt. God is felt as a presence - and God is another name for love. And to know God is to know poetry, to know God is to know celebration, to know God is to know bliss - sat-chit-anand.
That’s how the mystics in the East have defined God: sat means truth, chit means consciousness, anand means bliss. If you are utterly empty, you will come to know these three things. For the first time you will have some taste of truth, some experience of consciousness, some flavor of bliss.
But right now, although it will hurt you because it will be very destructive. What I am saying is going to shock you. You have believed in your poetry, in your passion, you have believed in your illusions and dreams and you have felt great because of all this. And I am saying all this is simply nonsense. Although the majority of humanity lives in such illusions, all these are mirages. If you really want to encounter life you will have to be ready for many shocks, you will have to be ready to be shattered into pieces.
The function of the master is to destroy you, because only when you are destroyed the context is created in which godliness can be felt. Your death is the beginning of a divine existence.