Chapter 3: In Search of a Lost Treasure
In ordinary love affairs it is true to some extent. That is the whole struggle between lovers, continuously fighting. It is not certain things that they are fighting about - any excuse and they are fighting. Their fight is to survive as an individual. This flood of love creates great fear in them.
But this is about the ordinary love affairs. What to say about the great love affair between the disciple and the master? It is a very tidal wave, but the difference is that the tidal wave will not take away your independence. In fact, you don’t have independence right now, it is just a vague idea. You don’t know freedom, you don’t know independence.
With the tidal wave of a master’s love, all that is slave in you will be drowned. You will come out fresh, more independent, more individual, and yet, more grateful, more peaceful, more graceful.
That’s what has happened to you, Anando, you have come back home. You have gone a little astray, but with me it is very difficult to go astray. I give you as much rope as you want - I give you the whole rope - and then you come back with that whole load of rope.
You proved to be an authentic disciple. And what you are saying is not simply words, it is your very heart.
When I hit someone, remember always, I hit myself more deeply. I can understand that you are healed, because my pain has disappeared, and I can feel your gratefulness. Not only was I feeling the pain through which you were going, the whole assembly was sad.
I would like Anando to bow down to all the buddhas here - they were all sad for all these days that you were in deep pain. Fighting with it, you have come victorious.
It is not enough to be grateful to me, you have to be grateful to all the buddhas who are working here together in search of a lost treasure, a lost golden climate. It is not an organization of buddhas - buddhas don’t organize - it is simply a meeting of brothers and sisters in a deep love. They are all moving towards the same center of their being, and the universal being.
Anando, come in front and bow down to the whole assembly. This will be a record for the future.
(Anando walks to the front of the assembly and stands in front of everyone in namaste. Osho tells her to bow down. She simply stands and bows, and in response, before she returns to her place, everyone bows down.)
Now, the biographical note: