Chapter 5: Meditation and the Paths to Inner Awakening
It may be anything - sex or anger or greed. Always make a distinction as to whether it has a survival value. Then you do not have to fight with it. If it is just a mental habit, then be aware of it. This mental memory of all our past actions has become a conditioned thing. You go on repeating them, you act just like a machine. Be conscious of this. You will be surprised to know: if there is no mind in your anger, and if it is just a total response to a situation with the whole body in it and no mental preconditioning, then there will be no repentance. You have acted totally in the situation, as the situation required. Then there need be no repentance at all.
Another thing: when there is no repentance, there will be no psychological accumulation. Nothing will be a habit with you. You need not accumulate anything. Why does the mind need to accumulate memories? - because it is not confident whether it can act totally in a situation. It prepares, it has to go through many rehearsals: if there is such and such a situation, it is not confident of what it will do. It must know all of what happened. It must sort things out; it must make programs of what is to be done in a particular situation. That is why the mind accumulates memories. And the more it accumulates, the less is your capacity to act totally. And the less your capacity to act totally, the more the mind will be needed.
So, act with the body. Do not act with the mind. This will look strange - like something never expected from a religious man. Act from the body. Then the act is immeasurable, the response is total. Do not let your mind come in. Then there will be no memory, there will be no mental accumulation. There will be no repentance. The act is just over. Things were such, the situation was such - you acted totally with no part remaining behind. So no one can repent. You were total in it. Otherwise, the part that is withheld repents later on.
The body can act totally; the mind can never act totally. Mind is always divided. Mind works in dichotomies. So one part of the mind is angry, another part is simultaneously repenting or preparing to repent. This should also be noted: whenever there is a part constantly against another part, know that you are acting through the mind not through the body. The body is always total. It cannot act dividedly. The body is just a flow. There are no divisions. When you fall in love it is the whole body which has fallen in love. You cannot make any distinction, such as: “The head has fallen,” or, “The hands begin to love.” The whole body is in it, but the mind can never be totally in anything. A part of it will always be criticizing, judging, commanding, appreciating. A part of it will always be sitting in the chair to judge, to condemn. So whenever you see that some part of your mind is working against the act, you know that you are doing it cerebrally, mentally.
Begin to do things bodily. When you are eating, eat bodily. The body knows well when to stop, but the mind never knows. One part will go on eating and another part will go on condemning. One part will go on saying stop, and another part will go on eating. The body is total, so ask the body. Do not ask the mind whether to eat or not to eat, to stop or not to stop. Your body knows what is needed. It has accumulated the wisdom of centuries and centuries. It knows when to stop.