Chapter 7: They Kill Lust with Lust
That’s why Bauls say, “Even if lust has to be transcended, it is through lust.” If anger has to be transcended, it is through anger. They know the alchemy of how to change poison into nectar. They don’t say to throw it, it is poison. They say to transform it, nectar is hiding behind it. The poison is only just the shell. Find the inner content of it; love is hiding behind lust, soul is hiding behind the body, God is hiding behind the world. Don’t throw it. It will be throwing something tremendously valuable. Maybe you are not yet aware of what value is there. You think it is just a stone. Become a jeweler. It is what Bauls call to become a rusik, a connoisseur. Know the taste of it, find out the ways, what it is. Become alert to the hidden reality, open the doors and go into it. It may be a Kohinoor, don’t throw it. If God has given you the stone, it must be a Kohinoor - otherwise why should he give it to you? Don’t think yourself wiser than him. Let his wisdom be supreme. You trust. If he has given you a stone it must be a Kohinoor, it must be a great diamond. It is his gift; it cannot be otherwise.
So even in lust they are not like ordinary ascetics. They don’t fight, they search deep in it, they try to find the chemistry of it. Something is bound to be there, otherwise why should God give so much sex energy to everyone? And to man he has given more than to any animal. In animals, sex is seasonal. Once a year or twice a year they become sexual, otherwise sex disappears. Man is sexual for twenty-four hours, twelve months a year, year in and year out. Something is bound to be there. Why has so much sex energy been given to man? It cannot be only for generative reasons - because animals are doing perfectly well. If man were only seasonally sexual, things, in a way, would have been better: once a year for a month, and for eleven months you are free. You can do a thousand and one things and not be worried about it. One month in a year would be enough.
But why has man been given so much sex energy? It cannot be only to generate children. This great treasure has been given for some other reason: it carries a hidden possibility for becoming tremendously alert and aware. This energy has to become love, and this love has to become prayer, and this prayer has to become ecstasy.
The generative part is very minor as far as man is concerned. Something of greater value is hiding in it. God cannot give you something without there being a particular reason in it.
They kill lust with lust and enter the city of love unattached. When lust is transformed and you enter into the city of love, you enter unattached. Remember, that is their definition of love. If love has attachment in it, it is lust, If love has no attachment in it, only then is it not lust. When you are in lust you are not really thinking of the other, thinking of your beloved or lover. You are simply using the other for your own ends. And of course, attachment is bound to be there, because you would like to possess him, and you would like to possess him or her forever. Because tomorrow also you may need, the day after tomorrow also you may need. You need a lover and you want to possess him.
Love is a gift. You give; you need not be worried about whether tomorrow he will be there to receive or not. Because a lover can give to the trees, to the rocks. A lover can give to the emptiness of the sky. A lover can simply flower and send his fragrance to the winds, even if nobody is there. Just think: Buddha sitting under his bodhi tree, alone, full of love, overflowing.. Not that somebody is there to receive, but God is always there to receive, in so many forms, in so many ways.