Chapter 4: Freedom Not Licentiousness
One day, Tanka said to the monks who were with him, “You should all protect your essential thing, which is not made or formed by you. So how can I teach you to do this or not to do this?
“Once, when I saw Sekito Osho, he taught me that I should just protect it by myself. This thing cannot be talked about. You all have your own zazen mat; other than that, what Zen do you talk about?
“You should understand this. There is nothing which is to become buddha. Don’t just go on hearing the name of buddha; you, yourselves, must see that the good devices and four infinite virtues are not from outside; don’t carry them in your mind.
“What do you intend to follow? Don’t use sutras. Leave the emptiness without falling into it.
“The seekers of the present day search for the Tao chaotically. Here in this place, there is no way to learn, nor any dharma to show. Even a single sip or a single bite has its own truth.
“Don’t entertain thoughts and suspicions. In any place, the thing is present. If you recognize Gautam Buddha, an ordinary old man is that. You should all see, and get it, by yourselves. Don’t let a blind man lead a mass of blind people into a fire cave.
“If you play a dice game in the dark night, how can you see the numbers on the dice?”
Before I answer your questions, I have to talk about a letter by Sarjano.
The other night I talked about him. He has written a very beautiful and loving letter, but as you know Sarjano, he is lying. I have no objection to it - if you are lying, lie beautifully and totally. A life without lies will be very boring.
When I told you the remark Sarjano made to Neelam: “If I don’t miss him, why does he miss me?” - he was not right, he was not true. He has been missing - he may not be aware of it.
Many of you are not aware of what you are missing. Many of you are not aware of what you have forgotten. But his case can be taken as an example.
He told Neelam, “I am not coming to the discourses because they are too long. I am watching the sky, sitting on my balcony.”
Do you think the sky is smaller than my discourses?
And Sarjano was not on the balcony either. He was not even in Pune. I keep myself perfectly aware of where you are. Looking at Sarjano’s eyes the other day, I saw that he has been with U.G. Krishnamurti. And not only has he been with U.G. Krishnamurti, he has been taking other people there too.
There is nothing wrong in it; only one thing has to be remembered: when you are fragile in your growth, people like U.G. Krishnamurti can destroy you. These people have missed their life, and now they are living in frustration. And in frustration people start behaving like women. They start breaking things, throwing things. That’s what U.G. Krishnamurti is doing.
But let him do what he wants to do. It is none of the business of anybody else to come in the way when he is throwing a disk. It is his disk. Why should you get unnecessary wounds? They are not your own.
It is a misery to say to you that many of you are carrying wounds of others, miseries of others, tragedies of others.
Have you ever looked at a simple fact - that you don’t have to be miserable, it is by choice?
And if you, Sarjano, were going to U.G. Krishnamurti, you should have told Neelam without lying that you “are watching the sky.” Now what has happened to the sky? The sky is still there, the balcony is still there, and what are you doing here? And particularly for you, I am going to make the discourse long. I care for my people.
Today he has written a letter in which he feels afraid that “perhaps the ghost of Rajneeshpuram will take possession of this commune also.” Sarjano, it is not you speaking, it is U.G. Krishnamurti. He has never lived in a commune.