Chapter 5: From Nothing to Nothing
This is the state Christians talk about when Adam lived in the garden of Eden: no knowledge, he had not yet tasted the fruit of the tree of knowledge. This is the state in which every child lives early in life. For a few months the child sees, listens, touches, tastes, but no recognition arises, no memory is formed. That’s why it is very difficult to remember the early days of your life. If you try to remember, you can easily go up to the fifth year. A little more effort - the fourth; a little more effort - and hard effort - and you can go up to the third. Then suddenly there is a blank, then you cannot remember. Why not? You were alive. In fact you were so alive that you will never be so alive again. Those first three years were the most alive time of your life. Why is the memory of them not there? Why can’t you penetrate into them? Because the recognition was not there. Impressions were there, but there was no recognition.
That’s why Tantra calls this state non-memory. You see, but by seeing knowledge is not created. You don’t gather anything. You live moment to moment; you slip from one moment into another without carrying the first moment into the other. You don’t have any past, each moment arises absolutely fresh. That’s why children are so alive and so fresh, and their life is so full of joy, delight, wonder. Small things make them so happy, and small incidents make them so tremendously excited, ecstatic. They are continuously surprised: just a dog passing by and they are surprised. A cat comes in the room and they are surprised. You bring a flower, and the color is tremendous.. They live in the psychedelic world; everything is luminous. Their eyes are clear, no dust has gathered yet; their mirror reflects perfectly. This is the state of non-memory, the third state.
And then comes the fourth state: memory, the state of mind. Adam has eaten the fruit of knowledge; he has fallen, he has come into the world. From no-mind to mind is the passage into the world. No-mind is nirvana; mind is samsara. If you want to go back again to that original purity, that primal innocence, that primordial purity of consciousness, then you will have to go backwards. And these same steps will be the steps: memory has to be dissolved into non-memory. Hence the insistence of all meditations that the mind has to be dropped, thoughts have to be dropped.
Move from thought to no-thought, then from no-thought to unorigination, and then from unorigination to no-mind.and the drop drops into the ocean. You are again the ocean, you are again the infinite, you are again the eternal.
No-mind is eternity; mind is time.
Now the other day I talked about four mudras: karma mudra, the action gesture, gyana mudra, the knowledge gesture, samaya mudra, the pure time gesture, and mahamudra, the great gesture, the space gesture. They are also connected with these four states.
The first, karma mudra, is memory. Tantra says: Whatsoever you think of as action is nothing but memory. In fact action has never happened. It is a dream that you have looked through, it is your projection. Action happens not, action cannot happen in the very nature of things. Action is just a mind-dream, you project it.
So the first, karma mudra, is exactly parallel to memory. The day you drop memory, you go beyond action. Then too things happen through you, but you are no longer the actor, you are no longer the doer of them; the ego disappears. Things flow through you, but you are not the doer of them. The trees don’t try to grow; growth happens, but they are not trying to grow. Flowers bloom, but there is no effort involved. Rivers flow, but they are not tired. Stars move, but they are not worried. Things are happening, but there is no doer.