Chapter 4: Desire: The Link with Life
There will be every temptation. This is what is really meant by temptation - mm? No devil is there to tempt you, your own mind tempts you, because that’s the most convenient way to be and to behave. Convenience is the temptation; convenience is the devil. The mind will say, “Be angry!” The situation is there and the mechanism is just on. Always, whenever this situation was there you have been angry, so the mind supplies you again with the same reaction.
As far as it goes it is good, because mind makes you ready to do something you have always been doing. But sometimes just stand off, off the track, and tell the mind, “Okay, anger is there outside. Someone is angry with me. You are supplying me with an old reaction, a stereotyped reaction, but this time I am not going to cooperate. I will just stand here and observe and see what happens.” Suddenly the whole situation changes.
If you don’t cooperate the mind falls dead, because it is your cooperation which gives it dynamism, energy. It is your energy, but you only become aware when it is used by the mind - don’t give it, and the mind will just fall down as if without a backbone, just a dead snake with no life. It will be there, and for the first time you will become aware of a certain energy in you which doesn’t belong to the mind but belongs to you.
This energy is pure energy, and with this energy one can move into the unknown. In fact, this energy moves into the unknown if it is not associated with the mind. If it is associated with the mind, then it moves into the known. If it moves into the known, then it takes the shape of desire. If it moves into the unknown, then it takes the shape of desirelessness. Then there is sheer movement - a play of energy, a sheer dance of energy, an overflowing energy moving into the unknown.
Mind can only supply the known, and if you can be detached from your mind, this energy will have to move, because it can-not remain static. That is what is meant by energy: it has to move! Movement is its very life. Movement is not a quality of energy, movement is the very life. It is not that energy cannot be without movement - no. It is the very life, intrinsic.
Energy means movement, so it moves. If mind supplies it with grooves, then it moves into the grooves. If there is no supply of grooves and if you have just put off the mind, then too it moves, but now the movement is into the uncharted. This movement is the play, the leela, this movement is creative, this movement is spiritual, and it is desireless. It is not because there is some desire that you move. It is because you cannot do anything else but move: you are energy and movement. So see the difference.
When mind works, it works as a dead weight, a mechanical weight, through the past. It pushes you towards the future..Because the past is pushing towards the future, the past again projects its own desires. So first understand the repetitiveness of desires.