Chapter 20: Affliction
In Sanskrit the name is alaya vigyan, the house where you go on throwing into the basement things that you want to do but you cannot, because of social conditions, culture, civilization. But they go on collecting there, and they affect your actions, your life, very indirectly. Directly, they cannot face you - you have forced them into darkness, but from the dark side they go on influencing your behavior. They are dangerous, it is dangerous to keep all those inhibitions inside you.
It is possible that these are the things that come to a climax when a person goes insane. Insanity is nothing but all these suppressions coming to a point where you cannot control them any more. But madness is acceptable, while meditation is not - and meditation is the only way to make you absolutely sane.
With no possibility of insanity remaining anywhere within you, with this store-house consciousness exhausted, you will feel so clean, so fresh, as if you have just taken an inner shower.
Then naturally it is like water being returned to water, giving you back your original being without affliction, without thoughts, without sorrow or joy. “Having entered the world, leave the world completely.”
Ta Hui is saying, “You have entered the world. Don’t leave it incomplete, otherwise you will have to enter again.” This is the law of reincarnation. It is one of the great contributions of Eastern mystics. Complete your life.and your life completes only with enlightenment. After that, there is no birth, no death. But if you leave this world incomplete you will have to come back, again and again. Millions of times you have come back; how many more times are you going to do the same routine job?
Is there such a thing as a father who is not troubled when his son dies? If you try to suppress (such sentiments) forcibly, not daring to cry or think about it, then this is deliberately going against the natural pattern, denying your inherent nature: (it is like) raising a sound to stop an echo or pouring on oil to put out a fire.
He is absolutely in agreement with my idea that nothing should be repressed, everything should be expressed. If you feel like crying, cry; there is no harm in it, it is absolutely in accord with nature. If you feel like doing anything that is arising in you with a great urge, do it, because once done you are freed from it.
If each moment we go on doing everything naturally, we don’t accumulate in the store-house of consciousness any rubbish, any crap.
And if your consciousness is clean, pure, innocent, the moment is not far away when you will explode into a luminous splendor. That’s what is known as enlightenment, or awakening, or self-realization.