Chapter 8: Life, Death and Love
My whole effort here is to teach you consciousness, not concentration. And this is the point to be remembered: if you become conscious, any moment you want to concentrate on a particular problem, you can. It is not a problem. But if you become too focused with concentration the vice versa is not true: you cannot relax. A relaxed mind can always concentrate easily, there is no trouble about it. But a focused mind becomes obsessed, narrow. It is not easy for it to relax and leave the tension. It remains tense.
If you meditate, first concentration will disappear and you will be feeling a little at a loss. But if you go on, by and by you will attain to an unfocused state of light - that’s what meditation is. Once meditation is attained, concentration is child’s play. Whenever you need to, you can concentrate. There will be no problem about it and it will be easy and without any tension.
Right now, you are being used by society. Society wants efficient people; it is not worried about your soul, it is worried about your productivity. I am not worried about your productivity: man has already too much, more than he can enjoy, there is no need to go on producing more. Now there is more need to play around more; there is more need to be more conscious. Science has developed enough; now, whatsoever science is doing is almost futile. Now going to the moon is simply useless but tremendous energy is wasted. Why? Because scientists are now obsessed, they have to do something. They have learned a trick of concentration: they have to do something, they have to produce, they have to go on producing something. They cannot relax. They will go to the moon, they will go to Mars, and they will persuade people that whatsoever they are doing is tremendously important. It is absolutely useless.
But this happens. Once you become trained in a certain thing, you go on, on that line, blind - unless a cul-de-sac comes and you cannot go on anymore. But life is infinite. There comes no cul-de-sac. You can go on and on and on. Now scientific activity has almost become ridiculous.
Religious activity is totally different. It is not worried about being more efficient. The whole point is how to be more joyful, how to be more celebrating. So if you go with me, by and by, concentration will relax. And in the beginning you will feel afraid because you will see your skill disappearing, your efficiency disappearing. You will feel you are losing something that you have gained with so much effort. In the beginning it will happen. The ice is melting and becoming water. The ice was solid, something concentrated; it becomes water - loose, relaxed, flowing in all directions. But anytime you need ice, the water can be turned into ice again. There is no problem, just a little more cooling is needed.
This is my own experience. Whatsoever I say, I say from my own experience: the same has happened to me. First, concentration disappeared; but now I can concentrate on anything. There is no problem. But I don’t remain in concentration; I can concentrate and relax whenever the need arises. Just as whenever the need arises, you walk; you don’t just sit on the chair and go on moving your legs. There are a few people who go on moving because they cannot sit relaxedly - you will call this man restless! Legs in perfect order are needed so whenever you need, you can walk, you can run; but when there is no need you can relax, and then the legs will no longer be functioning.