Chapter 15: The Smokeless Flame
What does this word enlightenment mean? It simply means desire was freed from all objects. He became pure love, compassion, pure life. And this pure life has tremendous beauty and ecstasy; and with this pure life you have attained the infinite. Desire remains small because you confine it to small objects, desire remains small because you desire small things. Seeing it, people start desiring big things - but big things are also small things; howsoever big they are, they have limitations.
Just think of your God. How big is he? Egyptians used to say he is seven feet tall - nothing much. There are many Dutch sannyasins here. Whenever I see a Dutch sannyasin, I remember Egyptians, Egyptian gods. Indians say he has three faces. So what? Our politicians have one thousand and one faces, and everyone has many faces. Only three? When you talk to your wife you have one face, when you talk to your girlfriend you have another face, when you talk to your servant still another, when you talk to your boss still another. Just watch the whole day, how many faces! And God seems to be very poor - only three faces? How does he manage with only three faces?
All concepts of God are bound to be limited. Concepts as such are bound to be limited. Even if you say he is infinite, what do you mean? What do you mean by infinite? Try to comprehend the meaning of the word infinite and you will be in a difficulty. Even your word infinite will be found to be finite. You can say he is unbounded, but just think, what do you mean? The boundary must be somewhere; how could it be that one just goes on and on and on? There must be a boundary - maybe it is very far away, far, far away, maybe you will never reach it, but what do you mean by unbounded? You simply mean unmeasured, nothing more.
What do you mean when you say the ocean is unfathomable? Do you think there is no bottom to it? The bottom is there, we may not have fathomed it. Our ways of measurement are small, our yardsticks are small.
Any word that we can use is bound to remain limited. Hence, those who have known godliness say nothing can be said about it. Buddha did not even say this much, that nothing can be said about it, because he said if you say nothing can be said about it, you have already said something. You have already defined it! “Nothing can be said about it” is a statement, and all statements define.
You can move from small objects to bigger and bigger objects, but still your desire, your life, will not feel fulfilled. It cannot feel fulfilled unless it is really infinite, not in conceptions but in experience, and unless you taste the infinity of existence.
Desire is beautiful, there is nothing wrong in it - only free it from objects. With freedom from objects, desire is divine.
You say, “You must have told us so many times already, but I still don’t get it.” Just by my saying it, you are not going to get it. You will have to move into experience. It is not a philosophical system of thought that I am conveying to you. I am only pointing towards a path; the path has to be followed. You will not get it just by listening to me. Yes, you can get it if you sit silently by my side. You can get it in the intervals, when I am here and you are here and no word interferes, intervenes.