Chapter 2: Where Did We Come From and How Did We Become?
Buddha’s disciple Anand was present in all the three situations. He became confused. Those three persons didn’t know anything about the two other answers that Buddha had given, but Anand was present in all the three situations. When Buddha was going to lie down on the bed in the night Anand said, “One question. Why did you answer the same question in three ways, inconsistent, contradictory?”
Buddha said, “I have not given any answer to you - you need not worry. You can ask your question and I will answer you. Those answers were not given to you. Who are you to come in?” An answer is given to a situation. When the situation changes, the answer changes. It is a response.
Buddha said, “The first man who asked was an atheist. In fact he was not an inquirer. When I looked in him he had a position - he has already achieved, arrived. He has concluded: he has concluded that there is no God. He had come only for a confirmation from me so that he can go and say to people, ‘Buddha also believes the same way I believe: that there is no God.’ I had to say no to him.
“The man who came in the afternoon was also with a conclusion. He was a theist, a staunch, orthodox theist - he believed that God exists. He had also come with the same mind, to be confirmed.
“The third man who had come was without any position, with no mind. He was an inquirer. He didn’t believe in anything: he has not arrived. He was on the way; he was pure. I had to remain silent with him. Now, if you have the same question, you can ask.”
A response will always be different, and yet deep down will be a running current of being. Always Buddha looks into the man, into the situation. The situation decides - not Buddha’s mind; he has none.
So you ask, “How does a buddha participate totally in day-to-day life?” If you try to participate totally it will not be total: no effort can ever be total. No technique can ever be total, because you will be manipulating. You will be separate from it; you will be trying to be total. How can you try to be total? You can relax; only then totality comes into being. You are in a let-go; then you are total.
Totality is not a discipline. All disciplines are partial. That’s why a man who is much too disciplined will never reach to the truth, because he will always be carrying the burden - doing something continuously: gross or subtle, on the surface or in the depth, but always a doer. No, a buddha is not a doer. In fact when you relax there is no other way to be - the only way left is to participate totally.