Chapter 10: Enlightenment Is Not an Experience
You have not lived life at all.
Each moment has gone empty.
It is great pain, great anguish - but remember it is your creation.
When you become tired, and out of the tiredness there is a little relief, then you feel clean. No condemnation, no pain, no jealousy, no greed - but no energy either. You have spent all your energy in those idiotic fantasies. Because there is no energy, for a few moments, a few hours, you are left alone. It is peaceful. But this peace is not the authentic peace. It is the peace that rains on the graveyard; it is not the peace of the garden, full of songs and full of flowers.
And as you gather energy again, the old companions are back.
This wheel will go on rotating unless you understand and jump out of it. And the only way to jump out of it is to live each moment so totally that it brings such contentment, such fulfillment that you cannot be greedy. And you cannot be jealous, and you cannot be in self-condemnation, and you cannot feel pain.
Existence gives you one moment by one moment.
So if you know to live one moment totally, you know the whole secret of life.
An Irish worker used to take tuna fish sandwiches to work every day, but a fellow worker noticed that each day he would take one bite and throw the rest away in disgust.
“But if you don’t like tuna fish,” said his friend, “why don’t you ask your wife to make something else?”
“Ah,” said the Irishman, “it is not as easy as that. I have not got a wife, I make them myself.”