Chapter 3: Occult Devices and the Spiritual Search
Stepping aside is sannyas. You just come out of the crowd. You just step out. You just sit by the side of the road. You say goodbye. Only then do you know the whole phenomenon of what the wheel is. Then you know that the same persons are running in a circle. They will pass you so many times. Then you know that this is a wheel.
A Buddha, a Mahavira, could call this world sansar - a wheel - because they knew. When they stepped aside, they knew that this is a wheel. It is not that you are running in a line. It is a circle - repeating the same desires, the same days, the same nights, the same disillusionments - and going on in the whirlwind. Pushed from behind, pulled from the front, you go on.
Sannyas means to step aside, to step out. So sannyas has two parts. One: knowing the frustration, knowing the anguish. This is a miracle. Once you know that the world is anguish, once you know that the world is frustration, you are not frustrated at all. The frustration comes because you think the world is not frustrating. The anguish comes because you hope. When you know that hoping is nonsense, then you do not feel hopeless at all. Then there is no need to feel so. Then there is nothing to feel hopeless about - there is no hope.
That is why Buddhism could not be understood. The Western mind could only interpret it as pessimism. It was a natural fallacy. Buddhism is not pessimist. But to the Western mind it appeared pessimist because of the saying that the world is frustrating, the world is dukkha - misery. This will make you pessimistic. This is not the fact. The earth has not known so happy, so blissful a person as Buddha. Or, it has known very few people. He was not a pessimist at all. So what is the secret? The secret is this: once you know this is dukkha, then you do not expect anything except dukkha. Only expectation creates the pessimist. If there is no expectation, you know that dukkha is reality. This is the fact - then there is no need to be in misery. Once life is known as miserable - absolutely miserable - you will never be in misery. You are out of it.
So a sannyasin is not one who is frustrated. A sannyasin is one who has known the world as frustrating. He is not frustrated. He is most at ease. There is nothing to frustrate him. Everything that happens, he knows it happens so. Even death is not an anguish to him, because death is a certainty.
Once you know the nature of this whirling wheel - of this world, of this so-called life, of this repetitive vicious circle - then you will be the most silently happy, silently blissful person. Now you do not expect, so there is no frustration. Now you do not hope, so there is no feeling of hopelessness. You are at ease - composed: the more at ease, the more composed. The more in the moment, non-wavering, still, standing.
In this very moment, here and now, is all that is to be known, realized. Moksha, truth, reality - in this very moment. So in a way, spiritual seeking is not for something. It is not for something, it is not for some object. It is to know what is, and the knowing comes once you are in the moment.