Chapter 3: Players of a Game
This man must have been postponing - postponing for death. When a doctor says you have only six months to live, then.. But that too seems to be just a wish; he may not be able - because when death knocks at the door, one is so much shocked and shattered.. When death has come near you, how can you enjoy? You could not enjoy when life was close. When life is receding farther away each moment, how can you enjoy? This is again just a way of believing that if it happens, then immediately I will start living. Who is preventing you from living right now?
The second man said, “If my doctor said I had only six months to live, the first thing I would do would be to visit a travel agency and plot out a world tour. There are thousands of places on earth I have not seen and I would like to see them before I die: the Grand Canyon, the Taj Mahal, Angkor Wat - all of them.”
Who is preventing you? Why are you waiting for death to come, then you will go and see the Taj Mahal? Will you be able to see the Taj Mahal then? Your eyes will be so filled with darkness that the Taj Mahal won’t look like a Taj Mahal. It will be impossible to see when death has come into the mind. It will make you blind. An inner trembling will overpower you. You will not be able to hear, you will not be able to see, you will not be able even to breathe. But why do people go on postponing?
Said the third man: “If my doctor said I had only six months to live, the first thing I would do would be to consult another doctor.”
This seems to be the most representative of all men. This is what you are also going to do. You are not going to live even then. You will try another doctor who can again give you hope, who can again give you future, who can again tell you, “No need to be worried - you can still postpone. No need to be in a hurry - death is far away.” You will find, you will seek someone, who can still give you hope.
Hope is a way of postponing life. All desiring is a way of postponing life, and all beliefs are tricks of how to avoid that which is and how to go on thinking about that which is not. “God” is not; life is. Please don’t be seekers of “God.” “Nirvana” is not; life is. Please don’t be seekers of “nirvana.”
And if you stop seeking nirvana, you will find nirvana hidden in life itself. If you stop seeking God, you will find godliness everywhere.in each particle, in each moment of life. God is another name of life. Nirvana is another name of life lived. You have just heard the word life; it is not a lived experience.
Drop all beliefs, they are hindrances. Don’t be a Christian, don’t be a Hindu, don’t be a Mohammedan. Just be alive. Let that be your only religion.
Life - the only religion. Life - the only temple. Life - the only prayerfulness.
I have heard, a disciple came to a Zen master, bowed down, touched his feet and said, “How long do I have to wait for my enlightenment?”