Chapter 35: The Purity of Awareness
Sitting with you every day, I am becoming aware of a dark, heavy space inside me. It feels as if it is not part of me, but I know I carry it around with me. Will it disappear if I keep on watching, or do I need to do something more?
The path of meditation brings everyone to the awareness of a dark space within; and simultaneously, the absolute certainty that “I’m not it.” All that is needed of you is just to watch and not to do anything.
It seems simple, but it is the most difficult thing in the world, not to do anything.
Just remain silent. Let it be there. Just look more closely, be more perceptive, more clear of all its aspects.but as far as doing is concerned, avoid it completely.
Doing, in the sphere of the inner world, is your undoing. Doing is perfectly right in the outside world - it is needed there. You cannot simply watch and things will start happening - you have to make some effort. The inner follows just the opposite law: if you do something you get caught into doing, you lose your purity of awareness; and the purity of awareness has its own tremendous power.
If you can simply sit, without any judgment about the dark space - not thinking of it as bad or evil, or something that has to be dropped.all these thoughts disturb your purity of awareness, and it is the purity of awareness that is going to dispel the darkness. So you have to be absolutely calm and quiet, and just be a watcher on the hills.looking down in the valleys where there is the dwelling place of the darkness.
The darkness will go - will have to go - as your awareness will become more strong, more pure. You will also start feeling that you not only have a dark space within you. Your awareness is not only awareness, it is luminous - it radiates light; and that radiation of light will dispel the darkness on its own accord.
It is not your doing - you cannot take credit for it - it is a universal law of the inner world. You have to simply understand the law and allow it to function without hindering it. Any effort on your part is a hindrance.
This is what Lao Tzu has called “action by inaction,” and the Zen people have called “effortless effort.” If you have followed what I have been saying to you, you will understand the beauty of effortless effort, and actionless action.
In the inner world, at your very center, you are absolutely as you should be. Nothing has to be changed there because nothing has ever become distorted, damaged. The innermost core is beyond all corruption. Around it corruption can happen, and has happened. We are surrounded by dark night. But we are not part of it. We are part of the eternal light of existence itself - we just have to come closer and closer to our being. And once we recognize the luminosity, the tremendous force of light to dispel darkness, you have found the very secret of alchemical transformation.