Chapter 22: A Journey without End
To be a master needs different qualities than to be a disciple, and both together make a harmonious whole. So once a master and disciple have met there is really one organic unity; otherwise the master is half and the disciple is half. Only when the master and the disciple are together and the harmony is complete, there is a mystery - two bodies and one soul.
For this to happen these totally opposite qualities are needed, because these opposite qualities function as complementary qualities.
The more I am with you, the more I realize how little I understand of the surrender of the disciple to the master. Could you say something of what surrender means?
It is not a question of understanding. Forget the word surrender. Can you love? Can you trust? Then surrender will come like a shadow, on its own accord.
Your difficulty is arising because first you want to understand intellectually what surrender is. Intellectually the mind, the ego - both will say no. “Surrender? - you are not going to be subjugated, enslaved by anybody!” - because the word surrender has been used with those connotations.
One country surrenders to another country in war. One wrestler surrenders to another wrestler in fight. Surrender has lost its beauty; it has become ugly, vulgar, violent. Drop that word.
You simply think of love and trust, and if these two are possible, one day you will find that the surrender is happening.
And the surrender is not a kind of slavery. It is a freedom - freedom from the ego. You don’t surrender anything except your ego.
The master only takes away things which you don’t have - but you think you have. And he goes on giving you things which you have, but you have forgotten completely that they are your intrinsic nature.