Chapter 18: Sailing in Rough Waters
A philosopher in the Second World War went to the front. Then his girlfriend’s letter and a photograph came; he had been waiting for it. She was sitting on a beach. Another couple was there in the background, a happy couple, very loving to each other, in an ecstasy, and she was sitting alone, depressed, sad. For a moment he felt very happy that his girl was sad for him, but the next moment the doubt came: “Who is this guy who has taken the picture?” Then he was worried because there must have been one more person who had taken the picture: “Who is that guy?” Then he could not sleep the whole night.
This is how negative doubt functions. A man has a positive quality that he is in search of rest, and a negative quality that he is restless. Just because he is restless, there is no need for him to get identified with it. You can use your restlessness as a jumping-board to attain a restful repose. You have an energy, an urge to do something; you can use that urge to become a non-doer, you can use that urge to be a meditator. The negative has to be used in the service of the positive, and each has both. Wherever there is a positive quality, just by the side exists the negative. If you pay too much attention to the negative you will miss; pay much attention to the positive and you will attain.
And male or female, both have to do that. Then the most beautiful phenomenon in the world happens. That phenomenon is an indivisible person, a one, a unity, an inner cosmos; a symphony where all the notes have become helpers to each other, not just a noise, but they give rhythm, color to the whole. They make the whole, they create the whole; they are not against the whole, they are not fragments anymore, they have fallen into a unity. This is what Gurdjieff calls “inner crystallization,” or what Hindus have called “attaining to the self,” and what Jesus calls “entering into the kingdom of God.”
Enough for today.