Chapter 55: Only the Unreal Dissolves
Feel: my thought, I-ness, internal organs - me.
Before desire and before knowing,
how can I say I am?
Consider. Dissolve in the beauty.
Once a visitor asked many people in a small town about the mayor: “What type of man is your mayor?”
Said the priest, “He is no good.”
Said the filling-station attendant, “He is a bum.”
And said the barber, “I never in my life voted for that rascal.”
Then the visitor met the mayor, a much maligned man, and the visitor asked, “What pay are you getting for your job?”
Said the mayor, “My goodness, I am not getting any pay for it. I have accepted this job just for the honor of it!”
This is the situation of the ego - only you think about your ego, no one else. Only you think that your ego is enthroned; for everyone else it is not so. No one agrees with your ego except you; everyone else is against it. But you go on living in a dream, in a delusion. You create your own image. You feel that image, you protect that image, and you think the whole world exists for it. This is a delirium, a madness. This is not reality.
The world is not existing for you. No one is concerned with your ego; no one at all. Whether you are or you are not, it makes no difference. You are just a wave. The wave comes and goes; the ocean is not worried about it. But you think yourself very important.
Those who want to dissolve the ego have first to recognize this fact. And unless you can put aside your egoistic structure, you will not be able to see the reality, because whatsoever you see, whatsoever you perceive, your ego distorts it. It tries to manipulate everything for itself. And nothing is for it, because reality cannot help anything which is false. Remember that.
Reality cannot support anything which is not, and your ego is the most impossible thing, the greatest falsity. It is not there; it is your creation, your imaginative creation. The reality cannot help it. The reality is always shattering it, always destroying it. Whenever your ego comes in contact with reality, the reality proves shocking. Just to defend yourself against these shocks which are always coming, continuously coming to destroy your ego, by and by you avoid seeing reality.