Chapter 3: Just Counting Other People’s Cows
Today they will be doing this in Europe - America has done it already. Tomorrow they will be doing it in Asia, in Australia, in Africa. It is possible, very possible, that if they are so much afraid of me, they will start banning my books. And it may become necessary that my books go without my name or with any name - like Holy Ghost! The name does not matter. But the message has to reach.
It is unprecedented. The whole world against a single man - a man who has no power, no nuclear weapons, who cannot do any harm to anybody. The whole world is at war with a single person. It simply shows that I am hitting at their very roots.
You need not be worried. If somebody has taken some passage, that passage will prove more important than his whole book. And I would like more and more writers, poets, film makers to steal as much as they can, because truth is not my property, I am not its owner. Let it reach in any way, in anybody’s name, in any form, but let it reach.
These words “taking responsibility for yourself,” confuse me. I am an individualist and enjoy being on my own. If I do what feels good to support myself, is it not a way of feeding my ego? Where is the limit between taking responsibility for oneself and feeding the ego by fulfilling its tendencies?
There is no limit for taking responsibility for yourself. And the question has arisen.and not only this question, many questions arise because you only think about them; they are not your existential experiences. If you take responsibility for yourself you cannot be an egoist, because to be an egoist simply means you are fast asleep and you cannot take any responsibility. Responsibility comes with awareness, alertness.
You are asking an intellectual question like, “When we bring light into the room, what are we going to do with the darkness? Where have we to throw it?” Intellectually it is perfectly right. There is darkness in the room and you say, “Bringing light into the room, the question arises: Where then has the darkness to be pushed? Where has it to be thrown? In what way?”
But it is not existential. Just try to bring light in and there will be no question about darkness. There will be no darkness!
Responsibility is awareness, alertness, consciousness. Ego is just unconsciousness. They cannot coexist. As you grow more conscious you grow more towards light, and anything belonging to the world of darkness starts disappearing. Ego is nothing but darkness.
So remember one thing: try to ask questions which are existential. Intellectual questions may look logical, but are really absurd. Try responsibility, and by being responsible you will have to be conscious and alert.
Remaining responsible, you will create the light that automatically dispels the darkness of the ego.