Chapter 2: Center and Periphery
Watching the mind means: look at it with deep love, with deep respect, reverence - it is existence’s gift to you. Nothing is wrong in mind itself. Nothing is wrong in thinking itself. It is a beautiful process - as are other processes. Clouds moving in the sky are beautiful - why not thoughts moving into the inner sky? Flowers coming to the trees are beautiful - why not thoughts flowering into your being. The river running to the ocean is beautiful - why is this stream of thoughts running somewhere to an unknown destiny not beautiful?
Look with deep reverence. Don’t be a fighter, be a lover. Watch: the subtle nuances of the mind; the sudden turns, the beautiful turns, the sudden jumps and leaps; the games that mind goes on playing, the dreams that it weaves, the imagination, the memory; the thousand and one projections that it creates. Watch! Standing there, aloof, distant, not involved, and by and by you will start feeling..
The deeper your watchfulness becomes, the deeper your awareness becomes, and gaps start arising - intervals. One thought goes and another has not come, and there is a gap. One cloud has passed, another is coming, and there is a gap.
In those gaps for the first time you will have glimpses of no-mind, you will have the taste of no-mind. Call it taste of Zen, or Tao, or Yoga. In those small intervals, suddenly the sky is clear and the sun is shining. Suddenly the world is full of mystery because all barriers are dropped. The screen on your eyes is no more there. You see clearly, you see penetratingly. The whole existence becomes transparent.
In the beginning, these will be just rare moments, few and far between. But they will give you glimpses of what samadhi is. Small pools of silence - they will come and they will disappear. But now you know that you are on the right track - you start watching again.
When a thought passes, you watch it; when an interval passes, you watch it. Clouds are beautiful just as sunshine is beautiful. Now you are not a chooser. Now you don’t have a fixed mind. You don’t say, “I would like only the intervals.” That is stupid - because once you become attached to wanting only the intervals, you have decided again against thinking. And then those intervals will disappear. They happen only when you are very distant, aloof. They happen, they cannot be brought. They happen, you cannot force them to happen. They are spontaneous happenings.
Go on watching. Let thoughts come and go - wherever they want to go. Nothing is wrong. Don’t try to manipulate and don’t try to direct. Let thoughts move in total freedom. And then bigger intervals will come. You will be blessed with small satoris, mini-satoris. Sometimes minutes will pass and no thought will be there; there will be no traffic - a total silence, undisturbed.