Chapter 11: The Sacred Makes You Speechless
He was the center.
There was no object anywhere else.
One of the most important Danish philosophers, Soren Kierkegaard, has said that “Subjectivity is all.” You can call it religion, you can call it truth, you can call it nirvana. But your own subjectivity, your own being..
And by the evening, a beautiful incident happened. It was a full-moon night - it has just passed here, one or two days ago; it was the same full-moon night - a woman in the nearby village.. In India people worship trees, they worship animals, they worship stones, they worship mountains, they worship the sun, the moon. On the surface it looks very childish, but deep down the question is not what you worship; the question is that you worship. Whether it is the sun or the moon or a tree or a river, these are only excuses; the real thing is worship. That woman was a worshiper of the tree under which Gautam Buddha was sitting.
The moon had risen.this is the strongest moon in the whole year, the most beautiful. And Gautam Buddha was looking almost like a god under the tree in the silence of the forest, by the side of the river - particularly to that woman. She had asked the tree something and her desire had been fulfilled, and so she had promised that she would come with delicious food to offer to the god of the tree. She thought perhaps the god of the tree had come out of the tree and was sitting and waiting.
And Buddha was hungry; he had not eaten for many days, so when she offered - her name was Sujata - he accepted. He slept for the first time in these six years of torturous search, without any tension, without any dreams. Just a silence was the only experience that was becoming deeper and deeper; his sleep was becoming samadhi. When there are no thoughts, no desires, and the mind is quiet, sleep becomes samadhi; it becomes enlightenment.
And in the morning, when he opened his eyes.just visualize.nowhere to go, nothing to achieve. And as he saw the last star disappearing in the sky, he saw himself also disappearing in the sky. This he called nirvana, disappearing. He became absent, just a pure silence, a nothing.a joyful silence, a silence that has a song in it, a silence which is an invisible dance.
This was the day of his enlightenment. Buddhist scholars for twenty-five centuries have thought that he achieved this state because of those six years of arduous effort. I differ from them absolutely. And they have not been able to prove to me.and they think that I am crazy because they think that if it were true, then in twenty-five centuries people would have seen it. But I say that he attained enlightenment because he dropped the desire to attain it.