Chapter 5: Be a Chaos at Ease
How is it possible always to remain centered? There is a tendency to go astray.
Don’t create any conflict about going astray and being centered. Float. If you create a conflict, if you become afraid of going astray, then there is more possibility that you will go astray - because whatsoever you try to suppress becomes very significant. Whatsoever you try to deny becomes very attractive. So don’t create any condemnation of going astray. In fact go with it. If it is happening, allow it to happen; there is nothing wrong in it. There must be something in it, and that’s why it is happening. Sometimes even going astray is good.
A man who really wants to remain centered should not be worried about centering. If you worry about it, the very worry itself will never allow you to be centered, because worrying can never be centered - you need a non-worried mind, an unworried mind. So going astray is good, there is nothing wrong in it.
Stop fighting with existence. Stop all conflict and the idea of conquering - surrender. And when one surrenders, what can one do? If the mind goes astray, you go; if it doesn’t go, that too is okay. Sometimes you will be centered, and sometimes you will not. But deep down you will always remain centered because there is no worry. You follow me? Otherwise everything can become a worry. Then going astray becomes just like a sin one is not to commit - then the problem is created again.
If Adam was allowed to eat the fruit of the tree of knowledge there would have been no problem, but the Jewish god wouldn’t allow it. It was a small thing, mm? And children are to be forgiven. It was just curiosity, and God himself was responsible for the curiosity - he created it in the first place. The moment he said, “Don’t eat from this tree,” he helped Adam to go astray. And when he fell a victim he was thrown out.
Never create any duality within you. If you decide to always be true, then there will be an attraction to be untrue. If you decide to be non-violent, then violence will become the sin. If you decide to be celibate, then sex will become the sin. If you try to be centered, going astray will become a sin. That’s how all religions have become stupidities.
Accept, go astray - there is nothing wrong in it.
No, I was not thinking of something wrong in it. In fact what I do - you know, I do the neti-neti - neither this nor that path is right.
That too can be a subtle denial. That too is trying to keep yourself aloof; not going with the river and still fighting, saying neither this nor that - neti-neti. But both are good: this too and that too - both are good, go with them.