Chapter 3: Players of a Game
They are not aware what they are asking. They are asking the impossible. The divine is not a thing. The divine is not an object. You cannot seek it. Divinity is this whole. How can you seek the whole? You can dissolve in it, you can merge in it, but you cannot seek it. The seeking simply shows that you go on believing yourself separate from the whole - you, the seeker, and the whole, the sought.
Sometimes you seek a woman, sometimes you seek a man. Sometimes, frustrated from the world, you start seeking the other world - but you are not yet frustrated with seeking itself.
A seeker is in trouble. A seeker is confused. He has not understood the basic problem itself. It is not that you have to seek the divine and then everything will be solved. Just the opposite - if everything is solved, suddenly there is divinity.
It happened once:
A bookseller from south India wrote to a house in New Delhi asking that a dozen copies of the book Seekers after God be shipped to him at once.
Within two days he received this reply by telegraph: “No seekers after God in Delhi or Bombay. Try Pune.”
Of course they are all here. The seeking is a disease. Don’t make it an ego trip - because when somebody comes and says that he is a seeker after God, I can see the light of the ego that shows in his eyes; the condemnation of the world - that he is not a worldly man, he is a religious man. The way he says it shows his pride - that he is not an ordinary man, not part of the ordinary run of humanity. He is special, extraordinary. He is not seeking money, he is seeking meditation. He is not seeking anything material, he is seeking something spiritual.
But to me, and to all those who have ever known, seeking is the world. There is no otherworldly seeking. Desiring is worldly. There is no other-worldly desire. In the very desiring, the world exists. What you desire is irrelevant; that you desire is enough to make you worldly - because all desires are from a basic fallacy - the basic fallacy that you are missing something, that something is needed. In the very first place, you are not missing anything. Nothing is needed.
The world is a nightmare because of desiring, and then nirvana becomes the last nightmare. Of course the last, because if you wake up seeking God and nirvana.. If you wake up, then all nightmares disappear.
You have dropped the world. Now you seek God. Please also drop God. This will look a little irreligious; it is not.
I was reading one statement of Albert Einstein. I loved it. Somewhere he says, “I am a deeply religious unbeliever.” In fact a religious person cannot be a believer. A religious person can trust, but cannot believe. Trust comes out of existential experience; belief is just a mind-trip. Belief is just of ideology, concepts, scriptures, philosophy. Trust is of life.