Chapter 1: Flower Shower
But this is not a growth, this is a regression. And deep inside you cannot flower, because only understanding flowers, never depression, and if you cannot flower, existence is not going to shower flowers on you. Existence simply responds to you: whatsoever you are, existence gives you more of that. If you have many flowers within your being flowering, a million times more flowers will shower on you. If you have a deep depression, the existence helps that too - a million times more depression will come to you. Whatsoever you are will knock at your door. Whatsoever you are will be given to you more and more.
So be careful and be alert. And remember, a sublime emptiness is a positive phenomenon. One is not a failure, one simply looks at the thing and understands that dreams cannot be fulfilled. And then one never feels sad, one feels happy that one has come to this understanding that dreams cannot be fulfilled. One never feels depressed, hopeless, one feels simply happy and blissful because one has come to an understanding: Now I will not try the impossible, now I will not try the futile. And one never says that the object of desire is wrong; when you are in positive sublime emptiness, you say desire is wrong, not the object of desire - this is the difference. In negative emptiness you say the object of desire is wrong, so change the object! If it is wealth, money, power - drop it! Make the object God, liberation, heaven - change the object!
If emptiness is perfect and sublime and positive you don’t see the object as wrong, you simply see that desire is futile; objects are okay, but desire is futile. Then you don’t change your desire from one object to another object, you simply drop the desire itself.
Nondesiring, you flower. Desiring, you become more and more paralyzed and dead.
One day, when Subhuti was sitting under a tree in a mood of sublime emptiness..
.Empty but happy, empty but filled; empty but not lacking, empty but overflowing; empty but at ease, at home.
.flowers began to fall around him.
He was surprised - because he was nobody. He never expected it. If you expect, they never shower; if you don’t expect, they shower - but then you are surprised. Why? Subhuti must have thought something had gone wrong. Showering on Subhuti, a nobody, no one, and that too when he was empty? Not even thinking of God, not even thinking of liberation, not even meditating - because when you are meditating you are not empty, you are doing something and filled with your effort - not doing anything? Subhuti must have become alert that something had gone wrong: The gods have gone crazy. Why these flowers, and it is not the season? He must have looked at the tree and he must have looked at himself again. On me, flowers are showering? He could not believe it.
Remember, whenever the ultimate happens to you, you will be surprised - because you never expected it; you were not waiting for it even, you were not hoping. And those who are expecting and waiting and hoping and praying and desiring - it never happens to them because they are so tense. They are never empty, never relaxed.