Chapter 1: This Disappearance Is Anatta
They managed to create a certain personality - you can only create a personality - and they had the hope that they had succeeded in creating a world teacher. Now he was writing beautiful poems, beautiful articles which were published by a section of the Theosophical Society which had been created especially for J. Krishnamurti. The organization was called the Star of the East, and they used to publish magazines, periodicals, literature, all about Krishnamurti, creating the atmosphere around the world to receive him as a world teacher.
But it was all forced from the outside. J. Krishnamurti had no realization, but he was intelligent enough to slowly grasp all the scriptures. He was honest also; U.G. Krishnamurti is not even honest.
Finally, when they thought that he was ready, they called a world conference in Holland - which used to be their great world center. Six thousand leaders of the theosophical movement from all the countries gathered to receive J. Krishnamurti and declare that he was the world teacher.
He came onto the stage - and it was in a very historical moment of honesty that he said, “I am not a world teacher.” It was a shock to the whole theosophical movement. It shattered the whole movement. But he had become completely familiar with all the great literature of mysticism. He dissolved the organization, the Star of the East, which had been specially created for him, and he left the Theosophical Society, and lived his whole life in reaction.
He was a giant in intelligence. The reaction was against all those people who had forced him to do things which were not coming naturally to him. He was not allowed to be natural at all. He was not allowed to meet any girls, he was not allowed to mix with ordinary people. He was not allowed to enter into any ordinary school or college, but had only private tutors, so that he could be proved to the world a superior being, as if he were coming directly as a messiah from God.
And obviously, if he had been dishonest, he could have told the world, “I am a world teacher.” He was ready for it; intellectually his memory was completely programmed. But because everything was imposed, it also created deep down in him a rebellion. He knew nothing of what he was talking about, of what he was writing. He knew nothing.
One of his best books is At the Feet of the Master. That was published when he was just thirteen or fourteen years old, just to prove that even at the age of fourteen he could produce such a great book. It was not written by him; it was written by a man called Leadbeater. Leadbeater was one of his tutors, and a very profound scholar of Eastern religions.
I have looked into all the Theosophical Society’s literature of that time to find out the style, to whose style that book fits. Leadbeater had already written many books, showing great intelligence and scholarship. The book that was published in J. Krishnamurti’s name was written by him, and perhaps polished by others. J. Krishnamurti did not even remember when he had written that book.
When he left the theosophical movement, he was asked, “What about the book, At the Feet of the Master, which has become a worldwide bestseller?” It is a beautiful book. But he said, “I don’t know. I don’t remember having written it.”