Chapter 9: The Master Is a Mirror
The pretender said, “My name has not worked. It is your trust. It does not matter who you trust - it is the trust, the love, the totality of it. I don’t trust myself. I don’t trust anybody. I cheat everybody - how can I trust? And I am always afraid of being cheated by others, because I cheat others. Trust is impossible for me. You are an innocent man, you trusted me. It is because of your trust that the miracles have happened.”
Whether the story is true or not does not matter. One thing is certain, that your misery is caused by your mistakes and your bliss is caused by your trust, by your love. Your bondage is your creation and your freedom is your declaration.
You are asking me, “Why am I miserable?” You are miserable because you have not accepted the responsibility for it. Just see what your misery is, find out the cause and you will find the cause within yourself. Remove the cause and the misery will disappear. But people don’t want to remove the cause, they want to remove the misery. That is impossible, that is absolutely unscientific.
And then you ask me to save you, to help you. There is no need for you to become a beggar. My people are not to become beggars. My people are not sheep; my people are emperors. Accept your responsibility for misery, and you will find that just hidden inside you are all the causes of bliss, freedom, joy, enlightenment, immortality. No savior is needed. And there has never been any savior; all saviors are pseudo. They have been worshipped because you always wanted somebody to save you. They have always appeared because they were always in demand, and wherever there is a demand, there is a supply.
Once you depend on others, you are losing your soul. You are forgetting that you have a consciousness as universal as anybody else’s, that you have a consciousness as great as any Gautam Buddha’s - you are just not aware of it, you have not looked for it. And you have not looked because you are looking to others - somebody else to save you, somebody else to help you. So you go on begging without recognizing that this whole kingdom is yours.
This has to be understood as one of the most basic principles of sannyas: a declaration of self-respect and freedom and responsibility.
Would you please talk about the sadhana based on holding as much as possible to the “I” thought or the sense “I am” and on asking oneself the questions, “Who am I?” Or “From where does this I arise?” In what way does this approach to meditation differ from that of watching the gaps between one’s in-breath and out-breath? Does it make any difference whether one witnesses the breath focusing on the heart center or on the lower belly center?
It is an ancient method of meditation, but full of dangers. Unless you are alert, the greater possibility is that you will be led astray by the method rather than to the right goal. The method is simple - concentrating yourself on the concept of I, closing your eyes and inquiring, “Who am I?”