Chapter 2: Living in Insecurity
If I give you a mala and I give you a robe, this is only for your remembrance: that now you have not to decide. It is only to make you remember that now you are not the old. When this awareness becomes so deep that you do not need to remember it, then throw the robe, then throw the mala. If it comes to you to throw it, do not make it a decision. Do not make it a commitment to me. If it comes to you then throw them, but not unless the awareness has come so deep to you that now even in sleep you know that you are a sannyasin.
When the ocher robe has come even in your dream, throw it. When even in your dream this ocher robe is there, then throw it. Then it is meaningless. If even unconsciously you remember - if you cannot forget in any situation, even in dream - then there is no need. So this is just a device to help you, to help you toward freedom. To help you toward total being. To help you toward total action.
And I will go on conferring sannyas on each and everybody who happens to be with me even for a single moment, because - as I have said - I do not know about tomorrow at all. So I cannot wait. If you come to me this moment, whatsoever is to be done is to be done in this moment. I cannot wait. I do not know about tomorrow, what is going to happen, and I cannot plan. So the moment you are with me, whatsoever is being done is to be done in this very moment. It cannot be postponed, because to me there is no future.
And this sannyas is not the old sannyas. It is totally a new concept - or totally an ancient one which has been forgotten completely. You can call it either. It is the most new and the oldest, simultaneously, because whenever there has really been sannyas, it has been such. But there are always imitators, and you cannot deny them - they are. There are imitators, and there will always be. So they make everything a discipline, because only a discipline can be imitated.
Spontaneity cannot be imitated, freedom cannot be imitated, so in fact sannyas can never be imitated. But those who are imitators, what can they do? They will make a system out of it - imitators always create systems. Anywhere else they do not destroy so much, because life as it is lived is imitation. Imitation goes on, the whole world is imitating. Your whole upbringing is through imitation - it may be language, it may be morality, it may be society, it may be culture.. Everything is through imitation. It is imbibed through imitation.
So imitators are successful everywhere except sannyas. They destroy much here. They cannot destroy everywhere, because everywhere imitation is the rule. You cannot be free with language - you must imitate it. You cannot be free with social structure - you must imitate it. Imitators succeed everywhere. Only sannyas - the dimension of total freedom - is something where imitators prove very destructive, because the very dimension is quite the opposite. Imitation will destroy it. So a Jesus is imitated: you have imitation of Christ. Whenever sannyas is imitated there is no sannyas left. So when I say there is no discipline, I mean there will be no imitation. When I say there is no commitment, I mean there will be no imitation. When I say there is no obligation, I mean there will be no imitation.