Chapter 10: Use That Clarity
Problems don’t exist, only people exist, but we create problems out of a certain neurosis because we are afraid to be left alone. We have become addicted to constant occupation: a problem leaves, and before it has left we create another. We immediately replace it so that we remain occupied. Otherwise life seems so empty and so vast that one feels lost. If you are not occupied in a problem, then the sheer vastness of existence overfloods you. You feel so tiny, almost nothing - and that frightens you. When you create a problem you forget the whole world because you are focused on the problem.
You are bigger than the problem and you feel very good, because you know that something can be done about it. You feel very powerful because you can go on playing with it. Have you ever watched a cat playing with a mouse? Sometimes she allows the mouse to go a little away, then suddenly she jumps and catches it again. Just a little freedom, and then again she jumps and catches the mouse, throws it this way and that. That’s what the human mind does: the cat playing with the mouse, and if you don’t have a real mouse, you have a plastic one, a rubber one; a mouse of your fantasy, of your imagination.
You create problems to feel powerful, because without them you will feel impotent. You try to solve your problem - and you know that you can because it is your creation. If you allow it not to be solved, that too is because you are giving it a certain time to live; otherwise you can destroy it immediately. The cat can destroy the mouse right this moment, but it gives a little freedom to the mouse to play around.
When you have no problem you have nothing to focus on. Unfocused, suddenly you become aware of this vast existence, and the sheer vastness of it paralyzes you. One wants to forget the skies and the stars, and the best way that man has done that is to create problems - small problems, mediocre, foolish.just what dress to wear today.
One is standing before the wardrobe trying to decide, confused about what dress to wear today. You play the game perfectly. It is up to you, because the dresses are not worried. You can decide whatsoever you like, nobody is hindering the path.
You can go on being worried about trivia, but that is a trick - a trick to avoid existence, to avoid one’s smallness. Man is atomic, and unless you accept that, you will go on befooling yourself through problems. Once you accept the smallness, it disappears. The smallness exists only because you don’t want to accept it. Otherwise you are not separate from this vast whole; you are part of it, you are it.
So this is up to you. You have attained a very beautiful insight, something tremendously meaningful, very significant. If you want to go on playing the game, go on playing. If you don’t want to play it you can drop it.
If you drop it, then for the first time you will become alive. If you drop it, for the first time you will become available to the infinite energies that surround you. This life can be simply magnificent, fantastic, but you are playing with noise of your own imagination. If you see the reason, it is simple to stop. Don’t try to become powerful; just be whatsoever you are. Don’t try to fight existence, to avoid it, escape from it - just accept it.