Chapter 43: Finding the Changeless through the Changing
A moment came in his mind when a thought flashed that “The child is just one day old, a few hours old, and I must have a look.” But then he said, “What is the use? Everything is changing. This day the child is born, and the next day the child will die. And one day before he was not here. Now he is here, and one day again he will not be here. So what is the use? Everything is changing.” He left - turned back and left.
When someone asked, “Why have you left all that?” he said, “I am in search of that which never changes, because if I stick to that which changes there is going to be frustration. If I cling to that which is changing, I am stupid, because it will change, it will not remain the same. Then I will be frustrated. So I am in search of that which never changes. If there is anything which never changes, only then does life have any worth and meaning. Otherwise everything is futile.” He based his whole teaching on change.
This sutra is beautiful. This sutra says, Through change consume change. Buddha would never say the second part. The second part is basically tantric. Buddha will say that everything is change; feel it, and then you will not cling to it. And when you don’t cling to it, by and by, by leaving everything that changes, you will fall into yourself to the center where there is no change. Just go on eliminating change, and you will come to the unmoving, to the center - the center of the wheel. That is why Buddha has chosen the wheel as the symbol of his religion: because the wheel moves, but the center on which it moves remains unmoving. So the sansara - the world - moves like a wheel. Your personality moves like a wheel, and your innermost essence remains the center on which the wheel moves. It remains unmoving.
Buddha will say life is change. He will agree with the first part. The next - the second part - is typically tantric: Through change consume change. Tantra says don’t leave that which is changing; move into it. Don’t cling, but move. Why be afraid? Move into it, live it out. Allow it to happen, and you move into it. Consume it through itself. Don’t be afraid, don’t escape. Where will you escape? How can you escape? Everywhere there is change. Tantra says everywhere is change. Where will you escape? Where can you go?
Wherever you go the change will be there. All escape is futile, so don’t try to escape. Then what to do? Don’t cling. Live the change, be the change. Don’t create any struggle with it. Move with it. The river is flowing; you flow with it. Don’t even swim; allow the river to take you. Don’t fight with it, don’t waste your energy by fighting with it; just relax. Be in a let-go and move with the river.
What will happen? If you can move with a river without any conflict, without any direction of your own, if the river’s direction is your direction, suddenly you will become aware that you are not the river. You will become aware that you are not the river! Feel it. Some day try it in a river. Go there, relax, and allow the river to take you. Don’t fight; become the river. Suddenly you will feel that the river is all around, but you are not the river.